Today, Hope calls herself "a recovering addict." She says, "If I had not had access to plastic surgery and plastic surgeons, I'm sure I would have had another addiction. And whether it would have been anorexia, bulimia, cutting myself, it's the same pain."

Hope had her last surgery 10 years ago to remove her breast implants but confesses she has since "fallen off the wagon" and had "procedures" such as Botox and collagen injections. Each time, Hope says, it felt like "I had failed."

Hope says recovery has been a constant struggle. "I've booked and then cancelled prior to surgery four nose jobs," admits Hope. "I can't fool myself anymore. I cannot fool myself into thinking that a smaller nose is going to equal a happier me. I know that doesn't work anymore because I tried that."