Carolyn was in the hospital three months before she saw her face. "I took it upon myself," she says, "to go in the bathroom and remove the bandages. ... I saw that I didn't have a right eye or a jaw. The whole left side of my face was just empty. There was nothing there at all, just a big empty space. I felt horrible. I felt that I looked horrible. I didn't even want to look at myself. I felt that if I didn't want to look at myself, I felt that no one else would want to look at me either."