Blessed with Hope
"I cried," she said. "Not happy, joyous tears but what-have-I-done and what-am-I-going-to-do kind of tears…I had no plans for quadruplets."
Faced with the toughest decision of her life, Beth was forced to decide the fate of her unborn children. In the end, she decided against "selective reduction" or adoption, and made the choice to keep all four babies and raise them on her own. It was a choice that not only her family was against, but one that sparked a public debate. Bill O'Reilly of The O'Reilly Factor weighed in, saying that taxpayers shouldn't have to help support the babies.
"I felt like my sister's life was headed for a total train wreck and she had no idea," says Beth's sister Leslie.
"For many months I laid here talking myself off the ceiling," Beth says. "'What if I really can't do this? What if I won't be a good mother? What if I'm never able to make enough money?' All of those things really weighed on me."
Toward the end of her pregnancy, Beth was monitored around the clock. During that time, she received some frightening news: one of the babies had stopped growing and was in trouble. Her babies were born two months premature via cesarean section.
Beth was overwhelmed with joy. "It was just so amazing. I was so proud and they were so beautiful."
Oprah: The question is: Having children that you cannot afford—is that selfish? There have been many a mother out there who gave up children…because they knew in their heart that they would not be able to give the child the life they deserved.
Beth: I'm very sad for those women. I would be a broken person today if I had chosen to give Luke and Casen away as I had planned. I was not going to keep the twins.
I do believe I'm going to be able to pay all my bills. I am not the kind of person who would be happy in life just receiving charity and not pulling myself up by my own bootstraps…. And I'm so grateful to everyone who has been generous to us and there have been such kind people…but it's very uncomfortable to need. And I'm broken-hearted for those women who have to give their children away because of finances. I love my children and I believe I can find a way to make this work.
Twice a day, five days a week, the twins have therapy to learn to walk and talk. That's a medical miracle!
"We hope and pray and feel they will be able to lead a normal life and that is the goal of our whole team, " Dr. Salyer says.
"It's definitely a dream come true," Zorena, Candy's mother says. "And sometimes I still think I'm dreaming, I really do."
When Christine shared her story on an Oprah Show, admitting her depression and being on the verge of suicide, she impacted many women living with similar pain. Oprah later received letters from 16 women who said the day the show aired, was the last day for them…until they heard Christine's story and knew they were not alone. This encouragement gave Christine a new purpose and reason to go on.
"I want to tell all of you something, and anyone else who is listening," Christine says. "I didn't save you in that sense, but you found your own inner strength. It shows what tremendous, caring, loving people you are in all of your pain. To feel that my children made a place in your heart means so much to me."
"I just thank you for having the courage to come here," Chris says. "And my children [still] have a mother. … I embrace it every day. You are a part of my family, and we talk about you every day. Thank you for your courage."