Before starting therapy, Truddi says she and her "troops" wanted nothing more than to confront—violently, if possible—her abuser. "Then it got worse because we were really dredging things up," she says. "The memories were coming back and you looked around you at the chaos that your life was in and you knew why it was in chaos and you just wanted to see him dead as a doornail. And now, I think, probably at last, we have some kind of relief from that. I don't ever want to see his face."