BOOM. It hit me like a ton of bricks. I had been so focused on self-will and doubting that I got myself in this mess. The thing was, I didn't know how to get myself out. So my prayer became "Thy will be done." I've said that prayer every day since. It has not been easy, but lately it seems that God is delivering on the promise.
I can remember the holiday season that year, looking into the houses of the neighborhood and seeing all the happy families, wondering how I wasn't one of them yet. I felt so alone, so scared, so separate from everything that I wanted and knew that I could be. I felt naked and alone.
And this was the beginning of the greatest miracle in my life. I was being taught humility and service. Two words I previously knew nothing about.
I remember making a vision board that holiday season in 2009, and on it I placed true love, Oprah Winfrey, The Huffington Post
, flat abs, Steven Spielberg, Avatar
and Star Wars
. This vision board represented everything I wanted to manifest in my life.
It kept me company the year I was meant to be in that pool house and for another year as I continued to couch-surf. Through all the transitions during those two years (from 2009 to 2011), I ended up losing the vision board. It had been one of my best friends in a time when all else seemed lost.
The vision kept me going. It felt like a warm and fuzzy vision that might happen someday. It didn't feel fully real, and yet I knew it could happen. So I pressed on.
And in 2010, I had the privilege of attending Date with Destiny with Tony Robbins. It was a miracle. I couldn't afford to attend, but Tony honored me as his guest. And after those long six days and seven nights, Tony delivered on his promise: that my life would NEVER be the same again.
But the transformation that occurred wasn't what I thought it was going to be. I thought I was going to win some kind of lottery. Instead, I gained the insight that the majority of my life had been spent in the search for significance and importance. And I thought that the more important I became, the more love I would get. This totally explained the drug-fueled ambition of my previous years in Hollywood. Drugs were covering up the feeling of not being enough and fueling my almost neurotic drive to make something of myself. Not because I wanted to add value to the world, but because I wanted to BE SOMEONE.
My breakthrough was that I had it backward. I realized that it was by being more loving that I would become important to my loved ones and the world. And yes, I had created The Daily Love at that time, but I wasn't living it at all. And so from that moment forward, I dedicated my life to BEING LOVE, to being of service, to adding value and to attaching my life to an idea that is larger than myself. And that idea is that the purpose of my life is to create a world where people feel like they belong.
After this realization, I started making money. That is when the love of my life came into the picture. That is when Oprah's producer reached out to me, asking me to be a Skyper on a new show called Oprah's Lifeclass
. And dedicating myself to being of service is what brought this amazing "Super Soul Sunday" opportunity into my life.
It wasn't through strategy. It wasn't through ambition. It wasn't through trying hard. It was because service to a greater cause lifted me to heights that would have been impossible otherwise.
And I stand here before you today a changed man. I stand here before you as your brother and friend and as an example of the tremendous power of Grace, redemption and service. There's no difference between us; we are both made of stardust. We are both children of the same God. We are both here to give our gift. You are my teacher, and perhaps I am yours as well.
What I know for sure is that no matter what happens in life, God specializes in redemption and is ready at any moment to lift up those who will be humble servants to Love. It doesn't matter where you're from. It doesn't matter what color your skin is, or what your sexual orientation is, or how much money you have. What matters is that we realize that we have a tremendous gift to give to the world that is already within us and is dying to be born. Not through egoic ambition, but through humble service to an idea whose time has come—Love.
In the comments below, I would love to know: How can you serve? How can you attach your life to an idea greater than yourself? What old patterns or beliefs are you willing to let go of so that you can step into your great power and abundance that awaits the humble servants of Love?
Let me know and let's discuss!
Mastin Kipp is the CEO & Founder of TheDailyLove.com, a pop culture blog that inspires almost 600,000 people a day! To get Mastin's daily dose of love please visit www.TheDailyLove.com or visit him on Twitter and Facebook. He has a book coming out in 2014.