Life as a Mother with 20 Personalities
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Like Truddi, Kim Noble has been diagnosed with dissociative identity disorder, or DID—the preferred term for what used to be called multiple personality disorder. Kim is a 49-year-old mother who lives outside London and has 20 different personalities.
Among Kim's personalities are "Patricia," the primary personality; "Salome," a devout Catholic; "Judy," the personality who comes out at mealtimes and, despite Kim's slight frame, thinks she weighs more than 200 pounds; and "Ken," a depressed gay man.
Psychologists suspect Kim suffered severe trauma from sexual abuse as a young child that caused her mind to split into these multiple personalities. To communicate with "Patricia," "Judy," "Salome," "Ken" and the others, Kim's therapist sends emails to each of them. "We've got all different email addresses," Kim says. "They have their own password. So I've sat there trying to get in by thinking, 'What's the first word that comes into my head?' And trying to think what may be their password so I could actually look at their emails."
"Patricia" explains that she believes whoever Kim used to be is gone forever. "Things got too much for her, so she just disappeared and we have to take over the running of the body," she says. "I believe that we were protecting her. She disappeared and she's gone to sleep."
Living with DID means sharing a household—there are different clothes, closets and toothbrushes for each personality. "I mean, I suppose I don't blame them," "Patricia" says. "They don't want to use somebody else's toothbrushes."
Watch Kim transform into "Judy" at a meal.
"Patricia" says her situation isn't such where a single personality represents a specific mood (such as "anger" or "fear"). Instead, each of her 20 personalities has a full range of emotions. "They're different. I'm me, and they're them," she says. "Me, as 'Patricia,' I've got my days where I'm angry and in a bad mood and happy and sad. I'm completely whole as a person. And they are also."
"It sounds more crazy than it feels," she says.
Kim explains that "Dawn" was the personality who gave birth to Aimee. "Only one of us could be at the birth," she says. "We couldn't all be there because only one person can be in charge."
Aimee says being raised by a mom with 20 personalities is interesting but seems normal to her. "I haven't seen any different," she says. Aimee says she doesn't remember a time when she didn't know that her mother had DID, and Kim and her therapists don't hide anything from Aimee.
While Aimee knows all of Kim's personalities, she doesn't always immediately know which one is present at all times. "If they're new and I haven't seen them before or heard of them, then I would ask them who they are," she says. "That's how I get to build a relationship with them."
"Dawn" doesn't realize Aimee is her daughter—she thinks she had a baby named Sky who was taken away at birth. Instead, she thinks Aimee is the daughter of a friend. "I think Aimee's good, and I'm very fond of her," she says. "But it's not the same as having your own."
This brings Aimee to tears. "I felt rejected," she says.
Watch Ria Pratt's riveting explanation of how her childhood influences her art.
Back in the personality of "Patricia," Kim says watching "Ria Pratt" speak makes her sad. "But I don't have all those memories that she's got, so I'm hearing it like a third person," she says. "If I did, I probably would not be able to cope."
"Patricia" says she remembers parts of Kim's childhood, but never any abuse. "Not me. I haven't had any abuse," she says. "I'm lucky not to have had any."
While DID is a rare reaction to brain trauma, most people are familiar with the concept of repressing negative memories. "Some aspects of experience are too unbearable for a person to survive," she says. "When that happens, a part of the person can capture those memories and keep the rest of the person safe by holding onto those and isolating them. ... The body remembers it, but it's not pushed away—it simply holds onto it and doesn't share it."
Browse a gallery of Kim's art.
"Patricia" explains how each personality has its own unique artistic style. "'Missy' is a child personality. She paints in a very energetic way," she says. "'Abi' is another personality, and there's loneliness in her life."
Dr. Moore says it's no mistake that art has a therapeutic effect on Kim. "Memories are in a part of the brain that is also capable of producing artwork," she says. "Instead of coming out as words, the expression comes out in art."
What's it like talking to Kim? A producer of The Oprah Show answers questions about this interview.