Though the public has often seen Goldie with a grin on her face and a bounce in her step, she says that she was anything but happy back in her early days of stardom.

Prior to landing her popular role on Laugh-In, Goldie was a dancer—until she was "discovered" and began her acting career on Good Morning, World. She says it was difficult to go from being a dancer to a famous actress.

"I didn't want to be a star," she says. "I wanted to dance and ... open a dancing school. I had my life planned."

Around that time, Goldie says she became depressed and suffered anxiety attacks and panic attacks. In her 2005 best-selling memoir, A Lotus Grows in the Mud, she wrote: “Day after day in those early months of my time on Good Morning, World, I turn up for work, do what I have to do and lie down in my dressing room in between takes. Anxiety attacks, depression and overwhelming nausea are my constant companions. Maintaining the cover that I am feeling happier than I am is 100 times harder than the acting I had to do before.”

It's a period she calls "the hardest time I ever had."

After nine years of therapy, Goldie says she was able to find her “true smile” once again.


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