Part of Sarah's new beginning is being absolutely truthful, and she's ready to settle rumors about her absence from Prince William and Catherine Middleton's April 29 royal wedding.

Instead of participating in all the festivities in London with her ex-husband, Prince Andrew; daughters, Beatrice and Eugenie; and the throngs of happy Brits, Sarah spent the weekend at a spa resort in Thailand. She says she was not invited to the wedding, but traveling 6,000 miles away was her decision. "I felt that I ostracized myself by my behavior, by the past, by living with all the regrets of my mistakes," she says. "I sort of wore a hair shirt and beat myself up most of the day, thinking and regretting. 'Why did I make such a mistake? Why have I made so many mistakes?' So I did spend a good three hours on that."

Sarah says her room in Thailand had no television so she couldn't watch the royal wedding, but when it actually came time for the ceremony to begin she caved. "I couldn't resist," she says. So Sarah called a friend in England and listened to the television coverage over the phone. She also was able to get an inside perspective from her ex-husband, Prince Andrew. "We were talking all morning, and he was saying, 'It's okay. Just remember we had such a good day. Our wedding was so perfect,'" Sarah says. "Because we're such a unit together, he made me feel very part of the day on April the 29th."

Though she was far from London, Sarah's spirit was present at Westminster Abbey for William and Catherine's wedding. A secret until now, Sarah tells Oprah, "[Andrew] had a picture of me in his pocket."


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