Carrie says doctors brought her back by fixing her medication. "I went from the mental hospital lockdown to just a mental hospital," she says. "When you're in the mental hospital, it's kind of okay because it can't get any worse."

Carrie manages her manic depression through medication and electroconvulsive therapy treatment—known to some as electroshock therapy—once every six weeks. "Did you see One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest?" Carrie says. "Well, it's not like that."

Carrie says she's put to sleep and given a medication so she doesn't experience convulsions. The treatment is administered through small electrodes on her temples. After treatment, Carrie says her mind feels more clear. "My brain gets kind of mired down, sort of like cement. And it kind of blows that apart," she says. "You can move on from whatever if you get into feelings that you cannot resolve through therapy, through medication or anything."

Still, Carrie says she does experience some memory loss. "I don't remember movies I've seen so I get to see them over and over again," she says. "It's actually not bad."


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