Montel Williams' Life with Multiple Sclerosis
5 signs of depression
Montel knows the feeling all too well. After his diagnosis, Montel says there was a time when he went into his closet and put a gun in his mouth. He says he just wanted to stop the pain in his feet, once and for all. "The only thing that stopped me from doing that is the fact that I had very small children in the house," he says. "So I got up and said, 'No, I've got a better idea.'"
Montel on depression and therapy
To make his death look like an accident, Montel says he decided to throw himself in front of a car. "[I thought:] 'Everybody [will] think I fell down. I have MS, they'll get it, no big deal,'" he says.
With a plan in place, Montel says he went to Columbus Circle in New York City and jumped in front of a taxi. The driver slammed on the breaks, narrowly avoiding Montel. Then, he jumped out of the car and helped Montel to the curb. "I swear to you, Oprah, that moment I had an epiphany," he says. "The epiphany was the fact that this man, out of nowhere, recognized me. He was like, 'Dude, we can't lose you. What happened? Did you trip?' … He was all concerned about me, and I stopped and I said: 'How dare I do this? How dare I?'"