Marion says she is grateful for the people who have supported her throughout her ordeal. "The prayers have really allowed me to get through it and be strong," she says.
Although being stripped of her medals was painful, Marion says the pain she has put her family and friends through hurts far more. "I've returned the medals, the performances have been taken away, but they fail in comparison to seeing my husband cry," she says. "They fail in comparison to seeing my mother have to stand there in the courtroom and bawl. You know, those things to me are what mean the most."
With a 4-year-old at home, Marion and her husband are faced with the daunting task of finding the right words to explain the situation to their young son. "I have not told him yet, " Marion says. "My husband and I have spoken about how we're going to go about doing that. I mean, as you can imagine, it's a very sensitive topic, and we're not dealing with a 15-year-old here who perceives things a different way. We're talking about a 4-year-old who was upset this morning that I couldn't drop him off at school, you know? It's going to be challenging."
Time after time as she denied using performance-enhancing drugs, Marion says she was fully aware of her actions. "I made the choice to at that time protect myself, to protect my family, and I have paid the consequences dearly," she says.
Marion says she has always been a believer in God but that she strayed. "Everybody strays at some point in their life, and I strayed and I made mistakes and I am no different than anybody else except for the fact that you see me on the front page of the paper," she says.
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