In hindsight, Marion says she believes her coach knew he was giving her a steroid, but she does not hold him responsible for the outcome. "I hold myself responsible first of all, for lying to federal prosecutors," she says. "But [also] for not being more careful with the people that I associated with and not questioning people more."
After her meeting with federal prosecutors, Marian says she never spoke with her coach about what happened or made any rash decisions because she thought people would become suspicious. "I simply continued the lie, continued saying, 'I know that I've never taken performance-enhancing drugs,' or a lot of times, what I would say, 'I have never knowingly taken performance-enhancing drugs,'" she says. "Then, I was able to kind of live with myself."