you gotta put yourself out there I do too. I remember once. Joan Rivers said to me and she you know she was just I was part of a conversation she was having with a bunch of people. Has recently not recently -- a couple years ago I was at an event and I heard Joan Rivers sadism and -- Now this is after -- chat conversations with the but I heard a girl who is that to -- much that's new and she's -- -- -- And I was trying to keep this -- it was a moot but Joan Rivers said something that I've never forgot that I thought was very interest and after the death of for harassment. She said you