After losing her family, Laurie says she struggled with suicidal thoughts. "There were days I begged to die," she says. "I didn't want to live without them. Death was just a bottle of sleeping pills away, and I remember being so angry at God and asking him, 'Why did you have to take both?'"
To mend her broken leg, Laurie went through a series of operations. After each surgery, she says she would become very angry and depressed. "[I would] just feel like, 'Am I ever going to get out of this cycle? Am I ever going to heal?'" she says.
As time went by, Laurie decided suicide wasn't the right answer. "I knew that my life was not mine to take. It was a gift given to me, and it wasn't my possession to take," she says. "Also, those around me had suffered so much ... I thought I couldn't contribute more to that."
Laurie says she was angry at God for a year and half. Then, she made a decision that changed how she looked at her life.