This isn't humility; it's denial. You know darn well what you've got, but you're refusing to receive it, because you believe this protects you from judgment—your own and that of others. It's time to thank yourself for having this fabulous quality. Say it, out loud or in your head: "Thank you for being so talented!" "Thank you for having great hair!" Don't be surprised if, once again, you find yourself plowing through the stages of grieving on the way to full acceptance. You may get angry at yourself for your arrogance. You'll bargain—yeah, you won the Pulitzer, but you didn't deserve it (this isn't a hypothetical example; I heard it from a real Pulitzer Prize winner). You'll get depressed about the fact that your parents don't really see this gift in you, or that they do but someday they're going to die. No matter what judgments fly at you, keep repeating, "Thank you for this gift."
Once you've begun accepting your own inherent gifts, you're ready to receive a present from someone else. Find a physical object someone has already given you: a flower, a card, a ring. Stunted receivers have a lot of mixed feelings about such items. You may not feel worthy of the gift, or you may be haunted by fear that you now owe the giver something enormous.
You know the drill by now. Sit with the gift, physically touch it, and say, "Thank you; I accept." Here it will come again, the emotional whirlwind: denial ("I'm not good enough to deserve this"); anger ("He probably expects me to sleep with him now"); bargaining ("I'll give her a pie; then I won't feel so guilty"); depression ("I bet he hates me for not writing a thank-you note"). Touch the object. Say "Thank you; I accept." Until you really do.
On the heels of accepting a physical present comes the real prize: accepting the love that motivated the gift. Few givers are perfect, so few gifts come from absolutely pure affection. But if you've practiced receiving with an open heart, you'll be a better judge of which gifts are genuine and which are Trojan horses. When a gift comes with manipulative strings attached—if it's not really a gift but a disguised bribe—it will feel unpleasant. You can either politely refuse or accept it without becoming vulnerable to exploitation.
The process should be familiar by now. Look back on a time someone gave you a gift of love—even imperfect love. Whatever the gift was (a compliment, companionship, confidence in your basic worth), hold it in your mind and say to the person who gave it, "Thank you; I accept." Sit still. Hold the gift in your heart. Say "Thank you."
The worst-case scenario here is that what you thought was love actually wasn't, that the person to whom you opened your heart was offering no real love at all. In that case, receiving openheartedly will leave you with hope: the shape of love not yet experienced, the DNA-deep knowledge of what you're meant to have. Once that channel is opened, you'll be amazed how many gifts are waiting for you to receive them.
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