This episode has hands down been the hardest for me to watch so far. Having to relive your life is such a weird phenomenon, but having to recall some of the most painful moments is just gut wrenching. This black out was particularly heart breaking because it did happen on Mother's Day, meaning that on Mother's Day a wife, mother, sister, brother, and family received a phone call saying their loved one was not coming home. I can't imagine their pain -- I can't, and I will never pretend to. When Dusty told me it happened where he was located, it was a punch in the stomach. It made me realize that it could have been him. It could have been my doorbell ringing.