Today's sharing is
something I received from a young man who attended one of my workshops. I share it with you hoping it will touch your heart as it touched
mine. Thank you, Derrick. A lesson learned and shared guarantees
Start with Prayer
many times have we heard that prayer changes things? As much as I
personally agree with that sentiment I sometimes fail to look at prayer
from all of its aspects. I had to learn that to develop a more profound
understanding of how prayer changes things in ways that I am sometimes
do not appreciate and, ways I have difficulty being peace about. I
realized that my perspective of prayer often causes me to doubt my faith
or to lose faith in its power.
I was taught that if ever my
life gets turned upside down, without prayer it will be difficult to
flip it upright. Nonetheless, I fail to pray as often or consistently
as I should. I also forget the prayers that I have prayed.
few years ago I experienced a shake up in the form of an ugly breakup
with a woman that I had dated off and on for eight years. It turned my
life upside down and I thought equal but opposite energy was needed to
flip it back to its correct side.
Eventually I learned
that the initial flip was the crisis, and prayer was the energy needed
to make the correction. Whenever I slip out of tune with my spirit I
loose the ability to differentiate between crisis and correction. Although one can exist from a lack of prayer and the other can exists as
a result, I often experienced the crisis and the correction in the same
way—I didn’t want either.
In hindsight, the answers
to my prayers often showed up much sooner than I was able to accept
them. As a result, I often missed them completely. I lost sight of the
answers to my prayers because I didn’t want to do the work that went
into making the corrections that answered prayers offer. On a very
unhealthy level it was gratifying to completely miss the answers to my
prayers because it allowed me to stay in my comfort zone of self-pity
and denial. I would then either forget the prayer request or write it
off as a prayer gone unanswered.
In my arrogance I
sometimes ignore the things that the universe is kind enough to show
me. Life has shown me that shake-ups are inevitable and even when I
don’t invite crisis I can’t always prevent it. It has also taught me
that I should always be receptive to correction and opportunity. This
has not been my state of mind; I often want the rebuild without the
renovation, but ripping apart and destruction must take place first.
second phase of a renovation is the most cumbersome and tedious, the
cutting away, and removing of unwanted or unnecessary materials. After a
lot of measuring twice, cutting once, and reconstruction the end
result is the refreshed new space. This is a metaphor for my life. The
breakup wasn’t about the woman, it was about a prayer being answered.
The process of rebuilding an outdated life is often as unsettling as the
incident that incited the overhaul.