Ruby can't remember anything about her life before age 13, which she's realized caused her to overeat. "I'm working with a new therapist who's helping me cope with a lot of pain or trying to find my childhood," she says. "I'm finding out I'm a girl that felt a lot of pain and I had no idea. And I suppressed it and suppressed it. And the only medication you can get to as a child is food."
To help fill the gaps in her memory, Ruby hired a private detective to find "Dr. Dukes," a doctor's assistant who treated Ruby and her mother more than 20 years ago. Dr. Dukes, tells Ruby he saw her about once a week. He says he also had the impression her mother was trying to protect Ruby from experiencing some kind of trauma she herself experienced as a child. "He thinks that she fed me to keep me unattractive to men," she says.