As months turned into years, Phil sank deeper into depression. His thoughts soon turned to suicide. "He started talking about how he was going to kill himself," Emme says. "It started to happen every week, and then it started happening every hour, practically. Then he would get into descriptive details as to what exactly he was going to do. ... I was a woman on the brink of her own disaster—of her own emotional breakdown."
Phil remembers telling his wife, "I'm going to kill myself," almost every 15 minutes when he was at his lowest point. "Our family would gather together and they would say to Phil, 'You can't say this to Emme every single hour. You're making her crazy,'" Emme says.
Finally, Phil says he couldn't take it any longer. One night, he went into his sleeping daughter's bedroom to say goodbye. Then, he locked himself in the bathroom and tried to kill himself by overdosing on prescription drugs.
Emme found him the next morning, in bed and not moving. "I looked to my side and I saw the note, and I'm like, 'Oh, my God,'" she says. "I was very angry at Phil for trying to leave us."