"You've got to try and rationalize the fear because it's not really real fear. You're just making it up in order to manifest whatever you want in your own day. So right this very second, I can go into hyperventilation and panic and enter an anxiety attack," she says. "I'm now aware of my feelings, and when you're actually in the middle of it, you keep looking back and realizing what on earth you did. And the person you look back and see is sort of almost unrecognizable."
Minutes into Oprah's interview, Sarah admits she has not seen the video in its entirety. "I haven't actually sat down and watched it," she says. "I haven't faced the devil in the face, because I was in the gutter at that moment. I'm aware of the fact that I've been drinking, that I was not in my right place."
Then, for the first time, Sarah agrees to watch the three-minute video, which shows snippets of conversation from her May 18 meeting with the undercover reporter.