Candace

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Candace says although she is currently on antidepressant medication, she still has the horrific thoughts of harming her baby.

"Like every healing process, it's a day-to-day journey," she says. "There are days I don't have thoughts at all and I'll think, 'Wow, this is great,' and one day, I'll wake up and I'll have an off day and I'll think, 'What if I take this knife and I stab her?' It's like I know I don't want to hurt her and I know these thoughts are wrong but they're just in my head and they cause me to even consider taking my own life because I think 'What kind of monster am I? What kind of mother could have these thoughts about her child?'"
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FROM: When a Mother Secretly Thinks About Killing Her Children
Published on July 11, 2005

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