When Kirstie started the Jenny Craig program, she was horrified at the results of her weigh in. "I weighed 219," she says. "For someone who spent most of her life at 130 … it was a shock. I remember I almost cried, but I didn't want to cry in front of them."
Tabloids made it impossible for Kirstie to ignore her weight gain. Looking at life-size cutouts taken from paparazzi photographs, Kirstie wants to explain her choice of an unflattering body-hugging blouse. "Somebody said, 'You know when you wear these big things, it makes you just look bigger,'" Kirstie says. "'It doesn't make you look skinnier. So you need to wear little tight things.' I said, 'All right, I'll try that.' So I wore this tight thing and then I was walking down the street [thinking], 'I sort of look good.' I see the paparazzi and I think, 'Wait till you see this shot. Yeah, this is going to be good!' And then I saw it! … It makes me want to throw up."
Oprah and Kirstie have shared the experience of living their weight issues in the public eye. Oprah wants to know—what was it like for Kirstie seeing herself overweight in a tabloid for the first time? "I went, 'Whoa, that's a really bad picture of me,'" Kirstie remembers. "Then the next week I saw another one and I went, 'Whoa, what's up with this angle? Are these people just trying to get bad angles?' Then I saw [the photos] from every angle and I was, like, 'Oh, my god. I am fat.'"