After JonBenet's murder, John says they did allow themselves to grieve, but they soon realized it was important to move on for the sake of their son, Burke, who was 9 years old at the time. "You have to move on. The loss of a child leaves a hole in your heart that doesn't heal, and you're a changed person, but you have other children," he says. "We have other children we love dearly, and that's our reason to go on and take each day at a time."
Despite trying to put the past behind them, John says he and Patsy always held out hope that JonBenet would get justice. "Any time we traveled, [Patsy] took a blue dress with her. The blue dress was in case they found the killer, and if she was asked to be interviewed, she could wear her blue dress," John says. "She lived believing they were going to find the killer."