I feel so blessed that another year is upon us and I'm still here, and, as the old folks in my church used to say, "clothed in my right mind."
My prayer for myself, my friends and the world is that we become ever more conscious—aware of our meaning and purpose. I pray for peaceful pauses within ourselves to acknowledge our gratitude for life and all its complexities. I say thank you right now for all the lessons I will receive in 2005, and for the grace I'll be granted to handle them.
I marvel that at this age I still feel myself expanding, reaching out and beyond the boundaries of self to become more enlightened. In my 20s, I thought there was some magical adult age I'd reach (35, maybe) and my "adultness" would be complete. Funny how that number kept changing over the years, how even at 40, labeled by society as middle-aged, I still felt I wasn't the adult I knew I could be. Now that my life experiences have transcended every dream or expectation I ever imagined, I know for sure that we have to keep transforming ourselves to become who we ought to be.
For the first six years of my life, I was raised by my grandmother. She was not an educated woman, but she knew the Bible as well as she knew her kitchen—and she could surely cook. She taught me Bible stories and had me memorizing verses from the age of 3. One of my favorites was "Be ye transformed by the renewing of your mind." I believe that when you stop renewing, and are no longer open to change and the possibilities that continually unfold, you stop being alive and are just getting through the years.
Transformation doesn't happen unless you're willing: It's your choice.
This year I'm choosing to live beyond my wildest dreams. I wonder where they'll take me.