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Amber runs outside and stands hyperventilating next to a van on the street. "I didn't ask for this! I didn't ask for cords and dialysis, and I didn't ask to die at 38 years old," she says. "And those stupid things make me happy for a moment. For a moment, they make me forget."

Peter catches up with Amber and consoles her. "I am sorry I pushed you over the edge," he says. "I don't [care] about that stuff. This is the first time I've seen the real you."

Amber says she doesn't care about it either. "I don't even want to be the real Amber right now. The real Amber has to deal with way too much for one person," she says.

Peter wants Amber to stop shouldering her family's burdens by herself. "You've surrounded yourself with a whole lot of illusions to deal with the hurt and the pain. It's okay to be imperfect," he says. "Instead of controlling everything in your life, reach out to the people who are offering you help."

"Will you help me?" she asks.
FROM: Does This Clutter Make My Butt Look Fat? with Peter Walsh
Published on March 14, 2008