In the dark times of Sinéad's depression, two of her best friends saw the worst. Angela and Hilly remember occasions when Sinéad would leave a note that spoke of suicide, and then she'd disappear. When Angela found these notes, she says she'd call all her friends and they'd organize a search party. "There's one particular day ... I found her in the street, up in the town," she says. "And she was just sitting on the street, distraught."
"You could see in her face," Hilly says. "You could see her mind was just starting to go out of control." Sinéad says she remembers how she felt in those times. "You're carrying so much pain that you couldn't know where to put it," she says.