In the last few weeks of my blog, I made it a point to say that I wasn't going to get weighed when I went back on The Oprah Show. Honestly, I just hate the thought that a number on the scale is going to define this whole experience for me. I wasn't trying to be difficult. It was all my ego and I want to learn to step away from that.
Ego is a tough cookie. No one wants to put themselves in a dark light. No one wants anyone to believe that we are not all what we say we are. But we all need to get over ourselves to get out of our own way to grow and to succeed.
You know, in life, we all have to play by the rules. When I signed up for this challenge way back in January of this year, the rules weren't: You only play by the rules if you lose a certain amount of weight. Rules are rules. And grown-ups with true ethics play by the rules.
I must say once more, losing the weight was not the big accomplishment for me, although I have lost a few pounds. Gaining self-respect, self-esteem and dignity was my triumph.
Let me ask myself some good questions. Did I lose weight? Did I manage not to gain weight after quitting a 35-year smoking habit? Did I learn to love myself? Did I continue and not quit after being on a plateau for six months? Did I learn through this challenge what my passion was? Was I able to get through the pain of my divorce and move on? Am I going to continue eating right and exercising? And mostly, would my mom be proud of me?
The answers to every question is undeniably Yes, Yes and YES!
Listen, I'm just a 50-year-old menopausal, hormonal, emotional, fun-loving, slow-weight-losing, crazy and amazing woman. And I just love that about myself!
LIVE YOUR BEST LIFE!