"I was extremely depressed. I was thinking of ways out," Susan says. "I didn't want to live with this anymore."
Michael also struggled with suicidal thoughts. One afternoon, he says he tried to take his own life by swallowing half a bottle of antidepressants.
"I had reached the point of just feeling so powerless. We're taught as parents that we are supposed to be able to help our children—to save them," he says. "And we alone we couldn't do it. We couldn't save her."
After taking the pills, Michael says he was planning to drive away and let them take effect, but then he had a change of heart. "I realized that I couldn't leave Susan and Jani and Bodhi alone. I just couldn't do that. I couldn't be that selfish," he says. "So I turned around, and I went back."