Recently, while Star was in the supermarket, she saw an unflattering tabloid picture of herself in a bathing suit. She says seeing those photos hurts her more now than it did when she was overweight. "When I was 300 pounds, I couldn't hide anything," she says. "There's nothing worse than being 150 pounds and then having a little pocket and having a tabloid take a picture of it and put it on the cover. ... I was bending over and they shot me from the side. I remember putting that swimsuit on that morning and how happy I felt. I remember it like it was yesterday, and they could reduce such a wonderful moment to something horrible. I was so depressed."
This time around, though, Star says the emotions didn't cause her to overeat. In the past, she says, hearing the negative comments and late-night jokes about her weight sent her into an eating spiral. "The late-night comics [were] crushing," she says. "We pretend that it doesn't matter, but it hurts every single time."
Published on April 01, 2009