"It was very strange because I wasn't expecting it at all...not that you would expect it," she says. "After I had Apple, I would characterize it as postnatal euphoria. I was on cloud nine. I was in this bubble. Then, when I had him, I just didn't feel okay. I didn't feel right. He came out and I was like, 'This is really strange. It's not the same. What's wrong with me?' Then, I just went down kind of a slippery slope with it."
For six months, Gwyneth says she felt like a flat line. "I didn't realize what was wrong with me. I just thought, 'I'm not myself. I'm not connected.' I didn't feel integrated in my body," she says. "I wish I had known because I would have gone on medication or addressed it in some way or done something."
Eventually, Gwyneth says Tracy's workouts and a healthier diet helped her break through the darkness. "I started exercising, and I started recommitting to eating well, because when I was pregnant, I was eating doughnuts and kind of bad food," she says. "I have a real thing for fried dough."