georgina
I hear you and I understand where you are coming from. I use to think like that also.
I have found that if you study the scriptures with the help of the Holy Spirit that you will find no contradictions. YEP! some seem like contradictions if you don't find the whole story or piece that fits with it. Man is the one who has caused so much controversy not GOD or those he inspired to write the scrolls.
When I found contradictions, I started a search to find out the truth. I never doubted God, Jesus and the Holy Spirit. In my search 30 years ago, I ended finding more then I wanted to, yet I wanted to know the truth if there was such a thing. I found what I was looking for and at the end of fasting, praying and searching what I found and heard there was no way to save my family or anyone from HELL.
Because of it I ended up taking my own life, and giving it up as a sacrifice to the GOD of Love because I couldn't believe that God would want me to take there lives to save them a place in heaven. Now I know you don't know my whole story. As I come to an end of my findings I also believed it was the end of my life when I looked into the mirror and saw the most evil being looking back at me. I told him that I could not take my families lives and I couldn't believe a God of LOVE would ask me to do so.
That day I told that being that he would have to take my life and I would go to live in hell for eternity to save my family and others from going there. I took an overdose of downers and went into my room, knelt beside my bed and this was the prayer I prayed.
Father God (tears running down my face) I can't believe you would ask me to do this. But not my will, but yours be done.
I laid down believing I would die and burn in hell forever.
Now I had two little girls, and two friends at the house that day. 3 hours after I had laid down. at that time (I thought my 3 year old daughter had come in)she said to me, "mommy get up its time to get up" I was getting up, when the door opened and Mark was headed my way, they had just found the empty bottle in my room and was coming to check on me. Long story short. There were many persons that knew something was going on because I had been seeking truth for a couple of months. Even my 9 year old at the time knew something was wrong and she was scared.
My baby was only 6 months old(it has only been a year ago that I realized I didn't have a 3 year old) It was and angel and that has been verified by persons who never have met me, they new it was an angel before I even told them about being awakened by my 3 year old. They even saw the angel and describe her, it was real. Anyhow I am alive today. And only since these forums have I been able to put this in writing. I have feared for 30 years what I saw but no longer. I am ready to shout it to the world, even the religious world.
Ok back to contradictions, when you find one it will fit if you know where to look or have help from the Spirit or someone who has studied and knows there bible or just how to find things. NOW man has created a lot of mysteries and mistakes and they are being brought out today. If you are really seeking the kingdom of God and his righteousness you will find the TRUTH.
As far as all the kinds of animals you can't eat. God in the NT has said that you can eat the animals.
You have to understand that in the OT and some of the NT that God told them to not eat certain animals because they carried disease's. Or they had to be caught and killed a certain time of year to be safe.
Rabbits for one, you can't just eat a rabbit any time, because of what they carry in different types of weather.
Pigs well you should know the controversy over them even yet today.
They didn't know they needed to cook things with a high temperature to kill certian bacteria and such.
So instead God told them don't eat it. God knew what his kids needed. They didn't it was there choice to obey. Still today we should listen to what he said, we wouldn't be sick with disease and all this death that comes on us.
One of the big things that effected me is milk allergies. The bible says don't mix milk and meat or something like that. Now if I continue to eat milk products then I am disobeying and I will reap the consequents of what milk does to my body. I can't lose weight. DUH I think I better listen or die from disobeying what I know to be true for me and my body. ouch!!!
When I went to LA weight lose they told me that it had been proven that you should not eat milk the same day you eat meat. I was like what. When I was taken off all milk for one month I lost 18 lbs without dieting. So this was interesting to me, because I also knew what the OT said about it.
They said it has been proven that it takes a different enzyme to digest milk and a different one to digest meat. Therefore causing people to not be able to lose weight or to have problems with there digestive systems.
Now that has to be GOD knowing what he is doing.
No where do you have to stone adulators. That was the culture of the people not GODS WAY.
Blessings. Jeanie.
Hope that helps some.