I don't know if this can be considered an "ahah" moment, since I haven't read the book yet. But it was significant enough for me to sit up and take notice.

We don't have cable or satellite, but usually broadcast tv comes in very clear. Tonight I was watching The Secrets Behind the Secret, with guests Louise Hay & Cheryl Richardson, and reception was terribly fuzzy, no matter how I manipulated the antenna. I had been a follower of both many years ago, but have really fallen of my path. I haven't been able to find the desire, interest or motivation to find my way back. I only & always think negative and my life has been falling apart.

So mid show, frustrated with the poor reception (both the tv and my own!) I decided to stop watching and go on the internet...but I had no internet connection. I knew I was supposed to unplug a cord, wait 30 seconds, plug it back in. So I turned it around to plug it back in and for the first time noticed the word "power". I had to plug into my power.

The internet reconnected right away, but I still took it as a sign to go back and watch tv. I don't know why these principles that were once such an important part of my life now seem unbelieveable and frustrating and exhausting. But I did see the show through to the end, when Oprah spoke again about "A New Earth". I decided to join the book club.

More obstacles. I couldn't log on and kept requesting my password and kept getting the message that my email couldn't be found in their system. I spent over an hour trying & waiting. Sheer stubborness kept me going. I just didn't want to "fail" at something again. Finally I opened a new yahoo account, and was able to register. But it didn't feel right. It felt fraudulent, somehow. Inauthentic. So I went back into my other email and after 90 minutes I finally received my password and was able to sign up under my regular email. I don't know why it was so important to sign up under that account, only that it was.

There were a lot of obstacles tonight...fuzzy reception, loss of power, inability to register. Obviously we're not jus talking about technology here, but my own life, my own willingness to receive and understand. If that's not a message from the universe, I don't know what is!