Hi,

I read your message and relate to everything you say. Let me tell you a little about be. I am 48 years old although I did not struggle with my weight in my teens. I married when I was 17 had my first child at 18 second child at 23. After my second child I started dancing with him while I was holding him in my arms started to change how I ate joined the ymca became an instructor started body building was in the best shape ever my husband had an affair with a lady he worked with. I was devistated we divorced. I remarried the most horrible man ever stayed to long in that marriage. I remarried 8 years ago to my soul mate and have gained 50 plus pounds I look see pictures of myself and can not believe it is me.I have a tread mill I hate it I have exercise videos I can not keep up with them even doing the modified version I know I need to take it slow but it is so discouraging to me. I can not seem to find inside myself the switch in my head because I know it starts in your head it is like a light switches on.

Thanks for letting me vent.

Good luck!