In the midst of my getting Sable Grey, LLC ready for 2009, and preparing to send out royalty statements at Cobblestone Press - with hopes of getting them out early this month considering the last two months were sent out later in the month - my computer got a virus. Since I've paid nearly a hundred dollars on all kinds of programs to help with spyware, malware, and viruses. I've gotten rid of most of the problems...all that linger now on my computer are irritating pop up advertisements somehow attached to my browser. At Cobblestone Press, we continue to be very transparent so that authors know what is going on but when things happen there are always one or two that must complain. One particular complaint was made on another site accusing us of either having bad luck or just being outright liars. It is offensive to me when I'm ALWAYS honest with everyone about what is going on. And this is internet publishing...you would think people would understand that there will be computer problems. I think in 3 years of being in business and only having two computer problems the whole time is pretty good. sigh Can't please everyone I suppose.

But that's just business. My personal life has also been a madhouse. I've learned that my grandmother is starving herself now and I believe it's due to depression because of my grandfather's situation. On top of hearing that news, my stepdaughter and I had a huge blow out and she is not moving out and into husband's parent's house - which I think is just a terrible decision.

While I attempt to laugh and joke about things, the truth is that I feel completely alone in dealling with ALL of these things. I can only cry on the few shoulders that have been offered so much before I'm certain they get tired of it as well. So I turn to work. The two days before Thanksgiving, now that I have my computer running again, I'll be working. It's all I CAN do. Hopefully, the extra work will pay off and I'll be able to find some peace in knowing that I am moving forward despite all of the mess going on around me.