Right now I am feeling okay. I do not feel heavy anymore. But I think that I have reached to a stage from where coming back is difficult.Now if I go back to previous eating ways, i will gain more body fat than the time when i started this journey. I have not lost weight , but I have lost inches as my clothes fit comfortably rather than tightly.I have become quite regualr in my exercise , the only problem is that by hte time I pack everybody out of home , it is already 8:00 in the morning, Sometimes by that time I feel hungry ,sometimes I continue with exercise for atleast 30 minutes, but the intensity of exercise suffers.I am looking for a solution to this problem that comes in way of my exercising.If antbody can come up with any solution, do let me know. I want to exercise more and more.

For past few days, I was thinking of writing a blog post, but youtube stopped me from doing so. Once I start youtube for lunch, then I find it very- very difficult to stop watching youtube. One link after other and the whole day is gone just like that. But youtube is also very good. Another reason was that I did not have anyhting to write about . Sometimes , I have lot to write and sometimes nothing at all. Thoughts come and go in mind themselves , with nothing specific to write about.

Right now no body is at home. i am writing this post as I have not wrotten for a log time. these days I am at peace with myself. i do not whether I have reached the state where I can say for sure that food no longer attracts me in a crazy way. I am not sure about it. Now i know for sure that when i need to stop or at food type I need to stop .I no longer crave ice cream, chocolate or soft drinks. yes , I crave for cool, crystal clear water I crave for more fruit servings than the the artificial sources of sugar.

today i cooke dmy favorite dish to eat at breakfast and at lunch. Now I had enough of it. this dish is quite healthy as it is made from semolina. I enjoyed it very much. After that i slept and slept and slept. Now I am fully awake. I do not know what happens to me these days when I start waking up i feel that I am not able to open up my eyes at all. inspite of all efforts, then I get very tense about this--that my eyes are not opening up . then after few minutes I am able to open up my eyes in reality, I do not why it happens , but it happens very frequently. ISs this sign of something?

Yesterday night, we had a fun night with our friend.We enjoyed.But in morning, the throat is hurting, nose is stuffy.Today I have skipped exercise and in order to take medicine. I want to be okay as soon as possible. Right now all weight loss efforts have been put on hold fpr a while, till i am okay . though I am feeling bad about this part , but I know I will be back in no time.

The main thing is that how I am going to live my life from now on. I want to live a very healthy life , dedicated to --------.I want to be regular in my prayers , my food routine and so forth. There are so many things to write that I am not able to decide what to write. I think I am going to write on paper , that would help me in organising my thoughts. But one thing is for sure that I am going to live a very disciplined life , and it is necessary is I want t o live a healthy and long life, I want to live 100 years. Who Does not want? But not everybody attaches efforts to their desire. I would like to efforts to my wish.

I WILL DO MY BEST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So far, i have not lost half pound of weight.But I feel quite light , I think I have lost some body fat, that is why I feel light.Now I am pretty active and not at all lazy, I do not feel sleepy.I am good at exercise. i have already lost the taste for soft drinks and chocolate.Now If I see chocolate , i feel like vomiting as I find chocolate too creamy. I find soft drinks so tasteless.The most important thing is that I am not at all disappointed , I know I have not lost single pound in two weeks, but I am sure that I will definitely lose the extra pounds with my consistent efforts. i have yet not lost my spirit. Thanks to everybody who are keeping me going through this blog.

Keep me going!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

today is the tenth day of my exercises.I have started enjoying my exercises.the hardest part is to start .Just before starting the exercises, i feel like to not to do and just go and sleep.but once I start doing them , I start enjoying them, then I keep doing them.It is addictive.But once i am done with pushing my limits in exercise, I feel extremely good and satisfied.As a result , I feel lighter and active the whole day.

I went to our family friend's home.As we were doing lunch together on the table, the host asked me very awkward question about my weight.I felt very uncomfortable and embarrassed , I do not know which one I felt most.As we were having lunch, she asked how much do you weigh, you must be weighing more ,Then I told her that I did not want to disclose the number. But still she kept insiting.On top of that , her husband also chipped in and announced a number of 200, stating that you must be weighing that much, I did not feel embarrassed for me , I felt embarrassed for my husband more than me. Then my husband told them That i do not weigh 200, but much less than that. I still wonder how somebody could ask like that. and the funny thing is that she herself is very heavy, she appears more heavy than me.

I wonder how people are so daredevil to ask such questions !!! I can never embarrass anybody like that , even in my wildest dreams. On that day I felt very bad, very bad.