I started this blog as weight loss blog , but for past few days , i am noticing ashift in content of my blog posts. They are becoming more and more related to self awareness,philosophical purpose of life.Two days ago , I was talking to my husband about some t.v. program , suddenly we came on to our personal lives , and he told me that if I did not improve my health soon , this year our family is not going to celebrate my birthday. The thing that pinched me soo hard was about birthday, Believe it or not !!!I cried for two hours and since then I have been pondering over this that I was so much attached to the idea of birthday celebration that it pinched me more than any thing in the world.If I am so much attached to the idea itself, how much I am attached to all other things in life !!!!! I am also attached to my weight loss , somewhere in my mind , consciously or unconsciously , I strongly believe that I look more beautiful now and if I lose weight I will not look beautiful then ---I am paying more attention to looks than health, I am amazed at this discovery. I am feeling relaxed now , and i think I have reached to the real cause of my increased weight.

GOD IS WITHIN ME AND I AM SEARCHING IT EVERWHERE OUTSIDE ME