The show on staying young has changed a lot in me.I got that book on which that show was based .I am reading that these days.I am starting everything new or on a fresh level, things and changes that I will be bringing will be same but with a NEW and FRESH ATTITUDE. And I think that attitude is very important for everything, for every change that we bring in.I am in a fix about the form of diary --whether it should be big one like a planner or a small one that I can carry with me all the time in my bag.Also I am still not able to decide about the format of diary writing ---it should be on a day to day basis or it should be written according to the category.In addition to all this , should I also document my efforts , my changes on blog or should I keep them only in my diary.!!!!!! With the blog , some time I might not be able to document each and every detail

I started this blog as weight loss blog , but for past few days , i am noticing ashift in content of my blog posts. They are becoming more and more related to self awareness,philosophical purpose of life.Two days ago , I was talking to my husband about some t.v. program , suddenly we came on to our personal lives , and he told me that if I did not improve my health soon , this year our family is not going to celebrate my birthday. The thing that pinched me soo hard was about birthday, Believe it or not !!!I cried for two hours and since then I have been pondering over this that I was so much attached to the idea of birthday celebration that it pinched me more than any thing in the world.If I am so much attached to the idea itself, how much I am attached to all other things in life !!!!! I am also attached to my weight loss , somewhere in my mind , consciously or unconsciously , I strongly believe that I look more beautiful now and if I lose weight I will not look beautiful then ---I am paying more attention to looks than health, I am amazed at this discovery. I am feeling relaxed now , and i think I have reached to the real cause of my increased weight.

GOD IS WITHIN ME AND I AM SEARCHING IT EVERWHERE OUTSIDE ME

I watched Dr.Oz's show with much eagerness. and yes , there was lot to learn from that . That show gave a surety to people who have abused or are still abusing their bodies in one way or the other.He told that it is possible for us to reverse all the negative effects on our body just within three years maximum, I believe that this time period could be less depending on our individual conditions. the show was very motivating for me , who is determined to change life and be a basically healthy body. After the show I realised that it is not a fantasy to think to live for 100 years, IT IS POSSIBLE!!!!All of us can live 100 years.It has created a hope in me , a challenge to push myself to that limit of good health and fitness, thank you Oprah for bringing us such inspirational programs.

I am still on infancy stage as far as regular exercices are concerned. Exercises are done on on and off basis , i do understand the importance of regular exercise , but I am not very regular about the, I do exercise for good 2 weeks in a row , then I leave them for a week or so , then later on i return to them ,so I am never able to do my exercises beyond a certain level.I need to be very regular about them.

I think this kind of confusion on all levels indicates some major changes in my life.In my opinion , this is the transition phase of my life. These things are motivating me to make a permanent change in my life. Whati was before 10 years , i have changed completely. Though there are some changes that i do not approve of , I have been living with them for past years. I do not know what life has in store for me, i know only this that whatever there is in for me , that is for my betterment.

I do not know whether it happens with others or not , but it happens with me often.I found myself pondering over the purpose of life . I am becoming older and older , but without any purpose. Few days back I concentrated on losing weight.And i succeeded in losing some weight , but after that I lost interest in that, and left it. I am not able to follow anything seriously.I sign up on many sites , then later on I lose track of all of them, due to sheer laziness.Then I decide that I am going to concentrate on teaching my child , but I have also proved lenient in that. Till date I have not been consistent in anything. I am not able to pursue anything seriously for a pretty long time. Earlier I was pretty consistent in everything I did , but for the past year , i have become quite careless about everything. I do not know what has happened to me. I have always been known as a determined person all through my life . But now i have become so much inconsistent taht I also become careless about blog wriring.

Youtube is really addictive, once I clicked on one video, then i kept clicking for next three hours , and then I di not get any time for eating. All I did was watching of videos after videos. It occupied fro a pretty long time. BY the time I turned it off, I had many pending chores, waiting for me.So the day went by .And May youtube long live!!!11

I have noticed that for past few days , I have started spending more than usual.I spend on everything I like at the first glance. I do not know why it i shappening! mayb e, now I try to satisfy myself with lots of shopping , instead of food .>If the things continue like that , I think I have to start a saving blog in which I wwould write about what I saved , rather than what I spent. once I am at a store , i keep spending , i keep collecting things in m cart and when it is time for check-out, I find very difficult to part ways with things in my cart and I end up paying huge amount of money,.But now I am in the process of finding out ways of not spending money , once i astore . If somebody has anyidea , please share with me.

By this day , my pain became worst, i could not move at all, in addition to all thi s, i got fever and my whole body was aching. So finally i decided to take medicine, this was my last resort towards freedom from this sickness. I slept for three hours ,but still I was not feeling fresh , but I was betterSo this day I could not exercise neither could I keep up with my exercise or healthy eating plan. I was feeling very weak.My husband cooke dth emeal for me ,a s I did not want to eat anyhting from a restaurant.

today we woke up early to go to a hteme park.I was worried about my health rouitne, whether I would be able to stick toit or not. But by some Divine power , I was a ble to do well.I ate a very balanced meal including atleast one fruit a day thing also. No soft drinks, No chocolates. Nothing to sabotage my plan. I think that some Divine Power was with me on that day that did not let me stray from my eating healthy plan. But at teh end od teh day, i was too tired to wink.

This morning everything was bad, my husband got ill, he had bouts of vomitting and a sever headache , feeling like that the head would burst open. I gave him medication , then he went to sleep , and I got time to do my exercise.But after three hours of sleeping , when he woke up , he again had vomiting and that severe headache, Failing to get an appointment from the family physician, I rushed him to emergency,there in waiting line , agin he had severe vomitimg and he passed out. The only doctors took care of him ,After spending three hours in the hospital and getting a nod from doctor , my husband got discharged, we went back to home , My son had an appointment with the doctor,As soon a swe reached home from hospital, i rushed with my son to his doctor, I was already tired and making matter worse , the waiting period on that day was exceptionally long ( I still do not know from where all the patients came on that day).We waited for one hour before we could meet doctor, we were ontime for the appointment . After waiting for so long and keeping a tween occupied in the waiting room was too exhausting fro me , I was deas tired We left the doctor's clinic after ninety minutes. I was ready to hit the couch or bed.Then i reached hom efinding that my husband was still asleep due to medication, my house was in bad shae. I cleaned teh whole house , did dishes , then finally , I got time to eat something good , Then I ate pre-cooked meal . By the time I finished everything , my husband woke up and The again I got busy till late night.This day was very tiring and I di not get proper rest. BUT I STUCK TO MY HEALTH ROUTINE SUCCESSFULLY INSPITE OF ALL THIS.

The main reason that helped me in sticking to my health routine was, that I have started liking the feeling of comfortably fitteed clothes as compared to somewhat tight -fitting clothes or that squeezed feeling in clothes. Now I like very much that comfortable feeling in clothes and I know its value and top o fthat I do not want to lose it. This feeling is priceless. I want to retain it forever. That ia why i kept my eating in control amd I exercised regularly except three days.

At last I got time to write my blog,The life became very busy, the health was not okay.Then there were holidays ,throwing the daily routine out of gear.I wanted to write for a very long tim e, but could not get enough time to sit on the computer. I hope that today I get time to write down everything in detail. june 28