Yesterday night we were discussing our life so far--the major incidents in life. And we realised that after a phase of difficult time , now the God has pput us in his arms. And He is doing His best for us. I thought that what we are doing to make it our best. He is doing His job. And what I am doing--I am trying to undo His best doing by my negative thinking or more aptly, my stupid thinking that comes from sitting idle. I thank God countless times in a day. But now I feel that the best way too thank God is to live my best life, that I have not lived yet.I keep waiting to do some thing good by pretending that the time is still not right , or some other very good pretext. Now I have to lose some weight , my innerself is resisiting in the name of baseless fear. I am amazed that how this brain controls us.