I have learnt that moderation is teh key to achieve anything including weight loss. If you try to be on a diet or avoid some kind of food , you will start craving for those foods and that would be worse than being overweight. For past couple of days I tried to eliminate evrything unhealthy from my diet and I was left hungry . My body needs some amount of sugar , some amount of oil , some amount of salt too. Depriving body of all these will create an imbalance. Now I have learnt my lesson that moderation is the key. Even drinking water in moderation is alsoimportant , drinking water endlessly is no good , drink when you are thirsty.Let hunger does not overcome thirst. This is really important. Yes, thi sis true that one will not die without soft drinks .This is a thinbg that can be eliminate dtotally from the diet forever.Another thing is butter it can be healthly replaced by oil .All frozen food s like french fries , patties can be replaced by fresh things In addition to this , one really has to learn to differentiate hunger from craving, which can be learnt only by lot of practice. In my case , it is very difficult for me to differentiate hunger from cravinng , i have to keep asking me again and again ---Am i eating this out of hunger or sheer craving.

For past few days , I have been doing great on my said things , I am able to eat pretty early and if later on I am hungry I drink big glass of orange juice or milk. It is really good Rest later on , right now my son is pestering me for computer

Today everything i sgoing fine except one thing that I am still not waking up early in the morning.Thes days I am eating healthy food , daily one big glass of milk or orange juice. Then I make it a point to eat atleast on efruit daily. This never makes me heavy.Also I eat early so I ma not heavy while I am sleeping, And today morning I was wide awake early in the morning , but I was too lazy to wake up , so I slept on and off with an eye on clock.I am adding step -by - step tasks in my daily routine. I am still not able to figure out how to focus on eliminating unhealthy food completely. Is it possible to eliminate unhealthy food completely from diet!!! Does anybody has answer to this.

Yesterday I did not eat late in night. I ate pretty early and when I was hungry , I had a big glass of orange juice.It filled me up and gave me calcium at the same time. But I am feeling quite drowsy.I think body will take few days to adjust to the new routine. But I felt light and not heavy as I used to feel earlier.

I was browsing other posts for the day .It is really wondrful to go through them.They teach me a lot through them we live others lives also , the aspects we might hve never been experienced . Blogging is such a good tool for living allkinds of emotions.

I have yet not checked my weight on scale , because I know that the needle does not move at ll , atleast in my case , so now I have started to look for other cues.The first cue is that now I donot feel heavy anymore.I feel active now , I do not sleep that much,.I do not get tired so easily. I do not feel lazy at all.This is reallly great. The second clue i staht now clothes that used to be tight are not tight anymore.They are not too loose , but they are not even tight , they are comfortable to wear. Today I am enjoying wearing one such dress ,This dress was tight on emonth ago , but today I am really very comfortable in this dress , and thi sis inspiring me to stay on track and keep doing my good work towards achieving good health. I am very happy.

after pouring my heart out on past days' happenings, now I am going to focus on current things going on in my life. writing about past two days was very good , I enjoyed thoroughly writing about them ,It was like sharing with somebody. and thsi kind sharing is always wonderful, no matter what.Sharing with a living person is unparallel, but these days , it is hard to get somebody to share , that is why blogging i ssuccessful,here I can say and share without feeling bad, embarrassed or shy or awkward about it.

On sunday, I had leftovers from saturday , so I did not have to cook. But in the morning , we decided to do shopping. So we packed our stuff for a very long day. I packed lots of fruit. Right now I am going , rest later on < But I will complete the story soon.

today was the day when the guests were coming and there was lot s of cooking to do . So i woke up early to have a head start. I had to cook four dishes , So whenever I have to cook lot , my strategy is to never leave any burner on stovetop without a pot. And this trick is always successful.I am always able to finish my all cooking plus cleaning before the deadline.I gave 45 minutes to preparation fo rall dishes , then T nine , I put all the pots and pans on burners , and everything was cooke dby ten, including cleaning of kitchen after so much cooking. In between , i felt hungry, but I decided to not to eat anything until I am done with all the cooking. After finishing evrything succesfully , I drank a glass of milk, as I have decided to drink milk everyday. After drinking milk, I laid the table for the guests.Another half hour gone in this. In between all this cooking and all, I had to take care of other members of family daily rouitne , so the morning was really busy. I could not sit for 2 to 3 hours. I wa sstanding , hopping from one place to other place. I had a good amount of exercise.

It is like writing after so many days .Though just two days have passed since wriitng last blog post, but it feels like returning after months.These days were quite busy.I did not even sit on internet for any purpose.Today I will write everything . It is so exiciting to read these blog posts at some other time.

Music is a thing that fulls me up.If I am listening to good songs, then i do not feeling hungry.Is not it wonderful.!!!!Also I feel more motivted to engage in any meaningful activity and am able to pursue it more diligently.Music is also a very good indication of being active and young.With good music in the background , it is really good to exercise, and dance also become sa good form of exercise in addition to ususal routine of exercise.

Yesterday at dinner as a sweet dessert I had my big cone of ice cream. It did not affect that much. I ate half of what I eat at dinner and then I completed rest of the hting with ice cram without feeling any guilt. In fact i enjoyed it never like before ,knowing that this much would not harm me as such. Rewards are sweeter after hard work and patience.

Today morning I found myself tempted by butter laden bread slices. I was dreaming about them and desperately wanted to eat them. But then I decided to put a break on the desire and decided to do some exercises. And I exercised for about 20 minutes or so .And my all hnger or desire vanished and I did not feel lke eating anything for 2 hours. now I was hungry and i ate leftovers and two bread slices toasted with very miniamla amout of butter as compared to butter laden bread slices. After this I felt like drinking soda. Then I paused once again and thought what I really want to have , Then I realised that all I want is something very cold and sweet to drink . and the flavored water compensated for soda and its empty calories. After that I had some ice cubes with water . and it really satisfied my empty desire for soda drink.

I am a regular watcher of t.v. I realised that there are lots of ads of medicines and diseases in the t.v.These ads condition us about the diseases .They tell indirectly that it is impossible to avoid those diseases.That it is inevitable to have those diseases. While they never give the thought about the other line of thinking.The preventive side. They never tell us that if we live a balanced life , we would not be able to get those diseases all our life and there are people who have never got tose diseases.I think these kinds of message are very important for people like me , who are really prone to such kind of conditioning.

Today is another peaceful day.I did my meditation in abetter way and for the required time. I am happy and content and motivated about the whole journey.Till now I had my glass of milk. I am happy , what more I can ask for?May I remain motivated in the same way.Yesterday I visited My friend, she offered me pizza , but yesterday God was at work.As she offered me pizza , I felt full for even a glass of water.So I declined . She insisted , but I declined the offer to the temptation.I am happy.Then I ate my home cooked dinner at night with my family. I was content and happy.May God show m esuch more days.

Today has been a great day.After so many months , I had a peaceful meditation. Today i was very balanced and clear as to what to do .I ate aand drank sensibly. I did not eat any processed food.It is a big achievement for me. First thing in the morning , i had a glass of milk . In the afternoon , I had banans .IN the evening , i was very much tempted to eat a very biig chocolate, but I talked to myself and realised that all i want i ssomething sweet , so i had pineapple. IT wa ssweet and cold . I reallt enjoyed it. Later on , I wanted to eat french fries., then again I gave athought to it , What I really wante was some thing spicy .So i drank big bowl of tomato soup minus butter .It was tasty and it made me full . I got rid of my cravings.So today has been A wonderful day. i really enjoyed it. I really liked my sensible eating. If I could continue in the same way for the rest of my lllife, I would be very healthy and willlos eounds like butter melts. I hope so and wish myself best of luck. Today was the day without tension and pressure.

Today I am at peace , so I want to put everything in black and white. I am not feeling stressed or pressed. I am relaxed , completely relaxed.Rest next time.I want to enjoy this fredom from stress and pressure from my negative thoughts.

I am happy , I also paid gratitude to GOD , I cannot get enough of it.God helped in getting free from various kinds of thought pattern.I am also moved by my husband's sentence , when he told me something about my son , that moved me to tears and taht single sentence took me ou tof my procrastination and I hve started paying more attention to my health and my family's health and aslo has changed my outlook towars the whole household. I never realised before that how important we are to him. Thank you very much. I love him and i cannot express my feelings .

Today blog writing gave me a solution , the solution came from within. I think that I was focusing too much on being overweight or on;losing weight and this obsession took its toll, it pushed me into negative thinking. But now i am happy as The whole day passed and I did not even had one single negative thought about my health.I was overfocussing .Now i am feeling really free from the torments of the negative thoughts.

Yesterday night we were discussing our life so far--the major incidents in life. And we realised that after a phase of difficult time , now the God has pput us in his arms. And He is doing His best for us. I thought that what we are doing to make it our best. He is doing His job. And what I am doing--I am trying to undo His best doing by my negative thinking or more aptly, my stupid thinking that comes from sitting idle. I thank God countless times in a day. But now I feel that the best way too thank God is to live my best life, that I have not lived yet.I keep waiting to do some thing good by pretending that the time is still not right , or some other very good pretext. Now I have to lose some weight , my innerself is resisiting in the name of baseless fear. I am amazed that how this brain controls us.

Since everybody is sleeping, I have time to write few more things. I was thinking about how this weight problem started with m e. After my first delivery, I was able to wear my old clothes comfortably, I never had to squeeze myself into them . The problem started from there , I could not believe that this could happen to me , who has a family history of obese ladies , especially after delivering teh baby.So in this surprise and happiness , i turned to ice cream. I used to eat lots of icec cream ina day and used to sleep aa lot. Pounds packed in 5 months. I did not realise until I tryto wear some of my pre delivery clothes and realised that they no longer were fitting, I was not able to get into them. I ttook it as a temporary phase , I took ita sbloating with some unknown reason, I did not consult any doctor. I did not able to shed those extra pounds . ever. I gained atleast 40 pounds. At that time I was quite naive in these matters , I did not consult anybody, I started doing exercises, but with a small baby and lot of moving, [we were moving to different places in every three months.] I could not keep my exercise schedule and eating was really erratic,,,,And in next four years , i gained another twenty pounds due to some very unluckiest instances in my life. In fact, at one point, I almost lost my balance in my

I just wanted to write , just before this I had whole lot of ideas in my mind , that I decided to write, but suddenly I have sem to forgotten them.Today I watched oprah about best life . It was very good. Especially, the opening was very stimulating, i in fact, jotted down few things, that I have decided to use as a way to bring me back , and also to keep me motivated through this whole journewy of weigh tloss. I know I am going to do it, even if I lose 1 pound , that would be great achievement for me , and would be a stepping stone for further weight loss.I think I can lose 1 pound a week easily.And if in theprocess, if I lose more , that would be like a bonus.

Today in the morning I woke up early , and had milk after preparing lunch for my husband.So I was full for five hours.As a rsult I decided to organise things in house and labeling and writing in detail about the contents in boxes so that I can find them whenever I want them. I was also trying some old outfits that I hav enot owrn for more than a year. I was disappointed to learn that some of those outfits were tight , i couldn't wear them.I felt extremely bad, and shameful that how did I allow my weight to increase to this point. This is really bad , this also shows that I am careless about my body. I felt real bad.But after three hours of work, I was hungry, so I ate all the unhealthy food on the earth. But today I changed one thing, i did not go to lie down as I usually do after eating any meal. This time I decided to remain awake atleast for one hour after eating. This lead to some kind of movement , that is better than simply lying down on bed like a sack. I am detrmined to make changes in my lifestyle soo that I can lose weight to enjoy wearing all those outfits that are tight now. One step at a mopment , baby steps , but this time I am going to reduce my weight for good.May GOD give me strength to fulfil my dream of past 7 years.

Yesterday night I waited till I was really hungry, then I had a balanced and full meal.And after that I wanted to eat the icecream out of habit. But yesterday I do not know what happened, i decided to Finish my kitchen cleaning, then to have an icecream. AFter cleaning the kitchen , as if there was GOD himself to intervene, my husband suggested to take a walk.So i decided to eat icecream After that walk. , but yestrday Night GOD was on work with me. As we steppe dout of our house for a walk , we met a neighbour , we talke dto him for some time , this meant delayed walk. So by the time I stopped walking , it was too late to eat anything , except water. Even my son had an icecram cone , but some how I did not feel like eating anything or even sharing it. I was wishing for him to finish the cone , so I had not to finish.Even then I decided a line of action, to throw it in trash can , rather into my stomach. I was happy for myself. I THANK GOD FOR THIS WHOLE INCIDENT.

Last night after having my so called last meal, I was healing uneasy, so I had a cola drink.Though how small that ws , after all it was cola.I regretted that very much, and I decided to get rid of my guilt by mouthwash.This is a kind of daily routine for me .But now yestrday night I decided to do away with this unhealthy habit.

According to me , weight loss or being healthy and fit is more mental work than physical.If you are mentally prepared or have understood the concept or have embraced the concept psychologically,then it becomes easier to follow all those fitness and nutrition regimens.Today my son was eating some of the junk food, that I really like very much, my mouth starts watering at the name of it. But since I was on a different mental plane at that time , i did not had to struggle at all to tempt myself away from that dish. It was easy like a breeze. Because in my mind it was clear to me that this food is not healthy for me as a whole, I did not see it as fattening food, i saw it as unhealthy food and my wgole perception changed towards it, and I was happy for not eating or tasting it. The thought even did not pass through my senses.

I have this old habit of procrastination.Since I realised that I have this habit, I have very much overcome this thign. But at time s, it tries to spread its wing, the area also includes my eating habits. Instead of preparing something i try to full myself with with whatever comes handy, like ice cream, cookies, noodles, cake , cream french fries, burgers. But now I have started keeping track of my daily routine including what I do in the whole day, I manage to prepare me a nice meal of my fondness. Just now I wanted to eat very badly the ice cream., i reminded myself if I am missing something in my daily routine, i checked my diary , then realised , i did not have milk since morning.so i took milk with cheerios and decided to have anything in the world ,but first of all milk, everything can wait , but milk cannot. This is also a way of respecting my body--giving it whatever it needs most, rather than giving into pressure of taste buds. But sometimes I give into pressure.

I was pondering over the health and fitness and weight loss issues in my life for past two -three days. I was not able to decide which thing is most important for me right now --health , fitness. or weight loss. So i was thinking and surfing the web, sudeenly going through various sites , i realise dthat these three things are related to each other-they are inseparable. The moment I realised this half of my dilemma was solved. after this I needed a medium to put my thinking to words, .Again I surfed the net for various blogging journaling sites, but eventually those sites were either too focused on weight loss or they did not have good facility for blogging , a space where I can put my thinking into words as well as can get feedback or also get a steady system of support. I fond Oprah.com the best place and most trusted , and safe and secure. So here I am trying to change my life and in process can get my area of connection with people wider.