kim_eng's Blog : March 2008

by kim_eng
Description: Kim's comments about Monday night with Oprah & Eckhart. Learning to live in the present moment and trusting the unknown.
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Hello Everyone!


Well done to Oprah and Eckhart for another great session! I loved how the gathering opened with ten seconds of silence. It has been my spiritual practice, through years of observing Eckhart, to begin and end every new event or situation (whether it is getting in my car, speaking on the telephone, running my next errand) with a space for inner silence, ten, thirty or sixty seconds of bringing attention inward to feel the breath and inner body. This enables me to sense the stillness, my inner connection to God. That connection to the divine spirit prepares me for authentic, spontaneous, right action. It is a way to let go of the remaining energy of the previous moment, but most importantly, it honors God, the space in which all forms arise and dissolve. And as Oprah asked Eckhart last night, "How do you honor something?" Said Eckhart, "By giving it your full attention..."


Our primary purpose in life is to honor God. That is giving our attention both in listening and acting from a God-centered state. Then our secondary purpose in life is everything else, work, career, family, friends, etc. In the words of Jesus, "Seek first the kingdom of God/heaven, then all things shall be added to you." I can only say for myself that this statement is true. Many times I have been in a state of presence, of devotion and reverence, while in the next moment, my primary attention got drawn elsewhere - into money, things, thoughts, emotions. Suddenly I would find myself in suffering again, inner hell. I began to learn to use suffering as my alarm clock, my wake-up call to return to present moment awareness, to inner peace, to being one with the essence of who I am.


This waking-up and falling back to sleep, spiritual sleep, brings me to a statement from one writer on this Blog. Davlaw said, "I have one comment and it is not meant to be confrontational. You stated that most people should not expect a sudden awakening like Eckhart did, but rather a gradual awakening over time. ...I wonder if the gradual approach reaches that type of profound place at its conclusion. The gradual approach may take a lifetime...while a sudden awakening can happen in the span of a day. It is not surprising that the shorter path would be preferred."


I would say that "preferences" are generated from the conditioned mind, likes, dislikes, and so forth. And the mind is always in search for something other than what is happening in the present moment. "A lifetime" is a mental concept. Concepts are thoughts. They have no ultimate reality outside our thinking. In reality, that is to say in absolute terms, there is only now. So we can only ever awaken now. Gradual awakening consist of many small awakenings, but ultimately each awakening can only happen now. No one knows when their awakening will be completed. Can it ever be complete? When Oprah asked Eckhart, last night, "Are you completely free of ego?" He replied, "All it means is that I am no longer identified with thoughts. I don't think in terms of ‘I'm free of ego.' That would be ego again."


Aldina3 asked, "...was the fear caused by the ego, or by the brain reacting to something unknown?


There are two types of fear, psychological and real. The latter type of fear happens in the moment and is usually short lived and rare, for example a bear chasing after you. There may be fear, but you don't have time to think "I am afraid." Instead, you take action. In other words, you are more than likely to "run", without thinking. The far more common and distressing type of fear, the psychological one, is created by identifying with your fear-based thoughts. Those habitual thoughts that tell you, "What if..., I can never..., will I be good enough..., what's going to happen..., etc." All of which is the ego. However, when you are rooted in stillness, you are free of fear. When you are fully in the present moment, accepting what is, there is no fear. You are not afraid of the unknown anymore. It is the ego in you that is afraid of the unknown. The fear of the unknown is the mind, or ego's, projection.


Sumanjoshi asks, "Why are we concerned about our human species survival as a form, if we are not the form?


Having "concern" is to care about humanity's existence. That deep caring is love. Love is the recognition of the formless within the form, the eternal within the impermanent. We honor the form because we love the formless within it. Because we honor the form, we are concerned. Because we recognize the formless within the form, we are not afraid of loosing the form.


Mlamarre asks, "Why is God called consciousness? Presence for Spirit? Clarify."


Whatever word we use to point to that infinite reality is going to be inadequate. "The Tao that can be named is not the true Tao", says the ancient Chinese book of wisdom, the Tao Te Ching. Eckhart rarely uses the word God because over the centuries many misinterpretations have accumulated around that word and it has become a closed concept. (A mental idol, as he calls it). Being, consciousness, or presence are open concepts and therefore work more effectively as pointers towards That which cannot be named. Consciousness, as Eckhart uses the word, could be described as "the light that emanates from the unmanifested, the eternal source of all life." That light is the essence of who you are. Jesus already pointed to that when he said, "You are the light of the world." Spiritual awakening is being aware of the light of consciousness within you.


As regards words, I liked what Oprah said last night, which went something like this; "When you believe the word is the reality, the world looses its magic." How divine is that!!!


In closing, I would like to thank all the people who have contributed questions and comments, which made for a truly inspiring reading. It is amazing to see the awakening process happening to so many people. My heartfelt thanks to everybody!


I would like to leave you with something that Eckhart said at last night's session, "The Now is the foundation for the rest of your life."


And this moment is your life!!


Be well...be in peace,

Kim Eng

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Trusting the Unknown

Posted on Mar 5, 2008 3:24 PM


Hello Everyone!!


Wow! That was an incredible session the other night, Monday March 3. I love that so many spirits/people were gathered together, at one moment in time, around the globe. On an energetic and unseen level, every person had connected their thread of consciousness to the whole, thus weaving a band of possibility for a shift into a higher consciousness for the planet. In the words of Jesus, "when two or more are gathered, I am in their midst." And as Oprah said, "God cannot be contained in a church." We are the one consciousness, communicating, first through stillness, secondly through words, to eventually create heaven, which is peace, on earth. But, as Eckhart said, "it all begins with the individual."


We are awakening now. How do I know that? Because you logged in for that first session with Oprah and Eckhart. People have often expressed to me their desire to awaken just as Eckhart had in one swift night. I can only tell you, for most of us, it doesn't happen that way. For most people it is a gradual awakening. There is nothing wrong with gradual, only the mind will tell you otherwise, as the mind is never satisfied with what is. Accept the present moment fully and you are awake. As soon as you identify again with every thought that arises, you have gone back to sleep, spiritually speaking. The underlying awareness, the I Am that is deeper than your thoughts, has become covered up.



For those of you who are not familiar with my background. I am Eckhart's partner in life and in work, taking his teaching around the world. My role has been and to some extent still is one of "behind the scene support." However, as awareness has grown, I have also begun to do spiritual counseling and teaching. To put it more accurately, it is the awareness that does the counseling and teaching, not the person called Kim.


Many profound spiritual experiences have been part of my awakening. I would like to briefly tell you about one such experience, which happened during one of my annual trips in India. I was staying in a town at the foot of the holy mountain Arunachala in South East India, and I would often spend my mornings meditating in a small cave half way up the mountain. One morning, as I was meditating, I heard an inner voice (which felt very different from the usual thoughts that would go through my head) saying to me, "There are two things that you need to do when you return home. One, do not go back to the work you are doing. Two, you are to move out of the place where you live." Then, poof...the voice was gone! When I got home two months later, I had almost forgotten about the voice. Shortly after my return, my employer called and asked me to come back to work. (They wanted to renew my contract, which had expired). Suddenly, I was surprised to hear myself say, "No thank you. I won't be coming back." It felt as if I was watching myself from some other dimension. Then the memory of what I had experienced in the cave came rushing back to me. Over the following month, I was like an outside observer, watching myself go through the motions of packing and moving boxes, furniture and other household items. Since I had no idea where I would move to, occasionally fear arose. After I moved out, I found myself with very little money, no job and no home. Friends of mine put me up temporarily. Then one day, out of the blue, Eckhart (whose book The Power of Now had just been published) asked me to help him with his work. In that moment, I realized why I had to leave my home and job. I was being called to trust and live my life in God. I had to leave my past behind and trust in the unknown. I had to be ready and open for a totally new life situation. I remembered that Jesus had said something like, "Do not worry what you shall eat, what you shall wear, even what you shall say, for in the moment that you need them, it shall be given."


Prior and after this experience, I had many others. However, I now know that no experience in itself is all that important. The experience comes and goes. In the past, I sometimes tried to hold on to such an experience and even make it into part of my identity. I now know that the experiences themselves are not ultimately what matters. What is it then that is ultimately important? Present moment awareness. That is the inner space out of which all experiences come and into which they return. As Eckhart puts it, "You are not what happens, but the space in which it happens."


Knowing yourself as that space is inner peace.


Be well...be in peace,

Kim Eng

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