58 years I have been on this planet.

Up until the age of 24 I really thought that what I had was no more than I deserved. I was (then) apparently fairly passable on the looks side, had a really good and enjoyable job but had never really ever found what I was looking for. At one point i even got involved with Scientology. I had never really discovered my inner worth and thought that any male who showed interest in me was therefore equal to me showing interest in him.

Several relationships later I met the one man who understood and loved me. It meant heart searching decision to move to his country to be with him. I left loving parents and a good circle of friends behind. I thought that I was in paradise - a good husband, lovely house, enough money and yes, the jewel in the crown - our first child.

From then on in things changed. I gave up my work, and found myself in a foreign country without any network to speak of. My inlaws told me that I should think myself lucky that their son had chosen me and provided me with all the things we now had.

It still was not enough and I sought solace in the church. First of all I had to be submitted to some kind of ballotage system before being admitted!

My father in law developed a brain tumour and we nursed him to the time of his death at our home. He maintained the same attitude towards me until his death. At that time our second child had beeen born, my husband was pursuing his career and I was left to deal with father in law and 2 children. Upon requesting the church to visit my father in law to help him through his doubts, I was told that we were out of their district. Eventually I found somebody prepared to come and talk to my father in law. He arrived only to send me out of my own living room to make tea for them!

Immediately after the death of my father in law my eldest developed diabetes at the age of 9. I really thought my life had finished. She turned from a lovely, exuberent girl into a neurotic mess. At one time she even threatened to take her own life. There was no one who could get through to her (or me).

In the meantime, our youngest did everything he could to make sure that mummy was not upset and everything was as peaceful as possible.

Life went on, daughter left home and became very independent with good job and own house. Son still at home but we were enjoying çompensating' for the turbulent past years.

In the past 4 years my parents died.

5 months ago my daughter announces that she is pregnant and is in hospital because her blood sugars are out of control and she has to be fitted with an insuline pump. 2 x she was taken into iu.

My son cannot cope with his sister's situation and has one drink too many and is arrested for drunken driving. His eczema breaks out as never before.

I feel alone in the world as never before.

Then, I notice A NEW EARTH. I order the book and read it within 3 days and follow the lessons on the web.

I began to sleep as I had not been able in the past 5 months. My children's lives begin to look as if they are at last shaping up. People I have not seen or heard from in ages have been in touch and, for lack of a better expression, I think I have started my AWAKENING.

Anyway, something has SHIFTED, and good things are happening.

Surely, that cannot be coincidence???