Suzanne is doing very poorly. She might die if she can't get weaned off the vent...damn pneumonia! Damn emphysema! Damn cigarettes! Damn septic shock! Damn acidosis! Damn Damn DAMN! I am so not ready to lose this person. Like my 2nd mom. But do I want her to have to live hooked up like this...no, she wouldn't want it. Why didn't she have it in writing? I keep waiting for the bug to kill her bit by bit... God, I'd give her a lung, if only I could!!