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5/11: Couldn't believe I didn't lose any inches off my waist so remeasured and weighed in first thing this morning. Results..-1" off waist, -1.25" off hips and down another pound (204). Now that's more like it.

SW: 209......CW: 204.....GW: 199-201 (for bootcamp)

(Workout mins, steps logged, calories and day's workout)

5/11....10 mins....2769 steps....1170 cals....cardio

5/12....84 mins...11299 steps...1215 cals...cardio, lower body

5/13....44 mins.....9738 steps...1160 cals...cardio, upper body

5/14....86 mins...10206 steps...1200 cals...cardio, core

5/15....55 mins.....6933 steps...1300 cals...cardio, lower body

5/16....68 mins.....

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WHAT SHOULD I DO??? in bird619's Blog

Posted by bird619 May 16, 2008

I'm a little sad, a little mad, a little confused.... I actually don't know what to think. I started making jewerly after a surgery I had, just to pass time. When I went back to work, I showed everyone what I had "created" while off. So they went wild for my stuff!! Great so far, they said I should sell my jewerly on the web, so eventually I did. I have my own website, that I created, not knowing about computers, I was proud of myself, thinking this would take off, it didn't... No one has bought not one thing from my website, and I feel like such a loser. I did this mostly for my family, I want my kids to see their "old" mom doing something like starting a business, so they know they could do whatever they want in life too. Maybe that's why I'm so let down, I don't know... What should I do? Cancel my website, stick with it? I don't know. I've had my site for about a month.

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Blame and Criticism

Am I bored? Highly critical? Fearful or anxious? If the answer to any of these questions is "yes," I may be suffering the effects of procrastination.

If I am plagued by boredom, I may not be seeking or initiating constructive changes in my life. By refusing to ask questions or seek answers to questions I already have, for instance, I perpetuate my sense of failure and emptiness.

If I am highly critical of others, it is very likely I am a "non-doer." People who are busy doing their heart's desires have little time to complain about the actions or attitudes of others.

If I am anxious or fearful about the future, I may be postponing until tomorrow what I could be doing today. Merely hoping or wishing my life will get better, while avoiding or worrying about an unpleasant task or problem, is self-defeating at best. If I want to live today fully, I must do something constructive with it.

TODAY I will tackle at least two things I dread doing. I will not waste my time and energy by wallowing in boredom, worry, criticism, or fear. I will do what needs to be done even if it requires effort, risk and change.

Original thinking? I think not. But oh so true.

Today is Saturday, and it’s part of a “home alone” weekend. In the past, I would have allowed myself to get “bored”, got critical about “stuff” and then acted out in some way or another, generally not in a mentally healthy way.

I’ve got things to do that will not go on the list of “favourite” things to do, but do them I will.

I will take responsibility for me, and make it a great day!!

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Friday May 16th 10pm. in appal777's Blog

Posted by appal777 May 16, 2008

Suzanne is doing very poorly. She might die if she can't get weaned off the vent...damn pneumonia! Damn emphysema! Damn cigarettes! Damn septic shock! Damn acidosis! Damn Damn DAMN! I am so not ready to lose this person. Like my 2nd mom. But do I want her to have to live hooked up like this...no, she wouldn't want it. Why didn't she have it in writing? I keep waiting for the bug to kill her bit by bit... God, I'd give her a lung, if only I could!!

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Jesus message is that love is the answer to everything.

Jesus/God/Holy Spirit said love everyone, love your enemy, do not judge them but pray for them.

Would Jesus/God/Holy Spirit expect me to do something that he is not willing to do? I think not.

Therefore Jesus/God/Holy Spirit the creator of everything is also the creator of Lucifer, whom he loved and is now the prodigal son. How happy the Father will be when the prodigal returns. Maybe this is what should be prayed for.

Yes, the bible does say the only way to heaven is through Jesus Christ.

Are not Jesus/God/Holy Spirit the same? Who can know God's mind or judge how Jesus may choose to present himself to others?

Yes we will all get to heaven through Jesus Christ because he came to earth to save the world and he knows we really do not know what we are doing (yet). If we were truly conscience of how we hurt others, would we really keep doing so, on purpose? Therefore his words, 'God forgive them they know not what they do."

Then he said, 'it is finished' and he died for the world.

The whole world, would he settle for anything less? Remember he said, 'it is finished'.

He did not say, It is finished but........or it is finished if.......... .

No Jesus/God/Holy Spirit would not ask me to do something he would not do, thank God.

Have a nice day

or not

it is up to you!

lightseeker

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My mom had to ask so I told her the down side of both. At Kid's Club I have to watch out where I am at all times when dealing with kids because kids lie and if they get mad at you they lie big. Like once in the winter I had a child say I grab her arm hard and pulled it. I had other kids around me who told the truth which was I never touch the girl I just ask her to get off her brother's lap without even touching her. Another time this past two months I had a anger mother in my face that ask me if I yelled at her son and how she did not like this. Another lie and again I had witness. So this is the down side of being a Kids Club worker I told my mom. Now Kitchen Helper getting cut, burn, and smashing fingers it is not fun and it hurts a lot. Also having to work for someone else because others get mad that you do not do it like the person your working for they can not see were two different people. So this is the down side of these two jobs but anyway does not all jobs have there up and down side? It all deals with one fact and one fact only which is we all have to work for a living. My two jobs are Kids Club and Kitchen Helper. Also always a Mom. I have five more days to go at Kids Club and 8 more days to go as a Kitchen Helper. When my summer vacation hits believe me I will take it proudly. Kids Club vs Kitchen Helper.

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I am tired of listening to Obama (sweetie) whining like a baby and having an ego the size of a football staduim. Bush mentioned no names when he spoke about how appeasement with our known ememies will not work. Of course, Obama ever the egotist and his lefty supporters come out whining about what Bush said. I am not and have never been a Bush supporter but I agreed with what he said yesterday. Obama has stated previously that he would meet with known evil world leaders and speak with them unconditionally. This is a position of appeasement. Obama waffles once again and the general election has not even started. I have zero confidence in this man. Lucy

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Ok, I am in my invisible phase. If I step into the moonlight, there may be a pale blue shadow. As I type this, I am trying to describe the kind of week I have had. I am mostly an introverted person, completely forced out of my shell every day to go to work and interact with people. I put my best foot forward, and project my personality with the social skills and etiquette taught over the years, starting from my first days at school. My mother taught me during the early days to do what the other girls do. Later she advised me to follow my own mind. Confusing! Then I discovered astrology and realised that it is in my starsign, Gemini - I can be two people at once. One is the conformist, the other is the opposite "chip on my shoulder". These personalities can emerge depending on where I am. Sometimes I read too much into people's comments and my ego becomes wounded. Other times the chip digs in and I have to use criticism and sarcasm to express what my gut is telling me. Actually my real nature is to be calm and placid, and if allowed to be alone I commune with nature and animals, who by the way seem to appreciate me way more than humans do. They also seek a peaceful uncomplicated life, hassle free from predators and competitors. Once when I was particularly feeling blue early early in my life I confided to my beloved cat and she was so sympathetic, her beautiful eyes stared deeply into my and she conveyed her understanding without words. That's it! The missing link - communication without saying anything.

Animals are so good at this. I have observed their behaviour over the years following this first insight into their emotive connection with one another and I realise how clever they are. Imagine a life where you cannot speak to your caregivers except through a tail wag or twitch and a few coded miaaws or barks. Imagine too how much meaning is put into these few signals of hunger, discomfort or pleasure. And yet the message is always so perfectly simple and clear. They do not have time to make up stories, and there is certainly no hidden agenda resulting in hours of self analysis and comparison. Oh of course the experts will say it is because they do not have the brain power needed to be sentient beings, but anti- cruelty animal activists and animal lovers like myself say otherwise. Just because we do not know something exists does not mean it is not there. We have to accept our own limitations. Just as we cannot imagine another dimension parellel to our own, why can't these precious creatures be more clever than us, so much more evolved in fact that they have learrned quiet acceptance? Isn't that what losing the ego is all about?

Ah, yes, my beautiful rescued collie cross girl is staring at me right now with her "spooky eyes". She is a treasure and my blessed companion who will never judge me nor forsake me. I call that very intuitive and we have a fantastic bond. There is a need to keep it simple, and learn from the animals. My one question is "if animals are the eyes and ears of God, how do human beings score on a scale of compassion and understanding towards life on earth." Ask any animal, the answer is in their reaction to us depending on the feedback from above and a quiet acceptance that theirs is not to question why...dogs even to lay down their lives in the duty of protecting their owners. Thus in that pale moonshadow I offer a prayer to my precious friends who see me as an equal. And that is a privilege indeed. Humility is the key.... love from Eve

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More than 2 years ago my wife and I were struggling with debts and like everyone the shame of being behind in payments! Many harrassing phone calls and piles of debt collection letters later, I got a call to "settle" one of the debts reasonably. Delighted I talked to a man who called himself various names, Randy, Jeff, "Mr Borath" and a woman who was a "supervisor" she and the man said, named Ms Jones or Ms Smith. It seemed to change with every call. Payments were made and a large balloon payment was due around Christmas time for around a $1000. I needed to delay the payment so as to have the whole amount and when I called Jeff, Randy etc....Ms Jones or Smith came on the line upset that I wasn't paying the whole amount they said was due instead of the reduced amount agreed upon by the man. The name of the debt collectiopn agency UCB or Universal Collection Bureau and goes under other names as Universal Fidelity, Resurgent Capital etc...! Of course we had words and THAT was the very moment that I realized that someone was trying to influence my lifes decisions and following my every move, by walking or by auto and in my own home 24/7! I was shadowed completely, like a blanket and it seemed impossible that that many people could be involved. Every one of my neighbors, the clerks at Wal-mart and Target and even Safeway managers and employees followed me around and made "loudspeaker announcements" to security to be aware of a certain aisle. I thought nothing of it at first but as I would listen the aisles mentioned for "security" to watch were the aisles I was shopping in right at that moment. I protested to the manager of the new East Wal-mart in Vancouver Washington, and said I would go shop elsewhere and he just looked at me and said, OK, do that!

I was stunned because usually managers liked my wife and I because we tended to spend several hundred dollars shopping at a time, due to many family gatherings and dinners and we are all good cooks and like good food! I "actually" put away the groceries I had chosen shamefully and left. Another store I went to was an all night store and 2 pickups followed me shining their lioghts into my eyes as I pulled into the parking lot. I shopped undisturbed but when I came out my car was surrounded by vehicles with their lights on, racing their engines to the screaming point! I tried to confront some of the men in the vehicles but they stared at me in stoney silence. I was flabbergasted and drove slowly home with a small convoy of pickups, vans and jeeps behind me. I woke my wife Bernadette when I got home and she was disturbed and didn't understand when I told her of the event. She even said , Oh Ty you always get so suspiscious. That may have some validity but this was a convoy and I was "thrown" out of a Wal-mart and I felt that suspiscion was not a strong enough word. I was angry and I felt like I had had something "stolen" from me-my dignity as a human being.

Since that day the stalking and harrassment have only gotten worse and now 24/7 I have a "heavy" outside my window racing his or her engine to get me to respond or I will have 3-8 followers follow me into the Borders Books near my home. Even while browsing for books the assistant manager or manager would catch my eye and "shoot" a disapproving" look at me as if I had been too long in the store or was looking at "pornography"! ( I usually look at stocks and options magazines and books as I'm an online trader.

I take my wife to work and a convoy of vehicles , 5-15 will begin to follow me "jostling" each other,carefully mind you as if under orders, ( they are! ) to get near enough to me to make sure I "see" them and the car they are driving. As if to "count coup" like the Plains Indians the Kiowa and another Sioux Tribe the Dakota Sioux did to each other, as if to have a story to brag about to each other over their incessant cell phones against their ear or when having "coffee" at a Shari's or Denny's sharing with the "senior" stalker present. I am amazed that I can write this without tears and rage, but I've learned something important and important for you reading this and recognizing the last few months of your own life, They don't have any authority, they are not CIA ( I laugh at this), they may be following me for some "citizens watch" but no authority was given them. Only the senior leader organizes and uses the GPS units to ID my vehicle . He uses software to notify little "blue" haired ladies and old men, teens, earnest looking soccer MOM types and young men in an orchestrated "dance of surveillance" designed to terrorize me and make me "look" crazy to anyone I told about the fantastic events happenning in my life. Right! My wife is only partly convinced I'm not crazy and barely believes it is happening.

The loud noises at night from engines, horns, car alarms go on all night and when I leave the house some "citizen" plugs onto my vehicles tail and the dance continues. I've been slandered at my apt complex, Village at Cascade Park in e. Vancouver, Wa. An organizing party was formed and plans were made and now here I am.

The slander and lies have ruined my life. I'm never sure why but the Debt collection agency and attorneys, and the owners of my apartment complex "will" answer why this started when it did and why I have not been afforded the protection and privacy ( Cameras and audio equipment are installed in my apt or in the apt upstairs. I've found this is common to these groups so as to keep control of all you do!) the other tenants have been given? These questions will be answered in a court of law and I will never give up finding every single person involved in the stalking and have them prosecuted one by one and jailed! ( A note: Target will install cameras in some areas as security to help those who can't afford it. Any cameras or audio equipment by target should NOT be used like I've describedstalking and harrassing me and a lawyer if he/she has the courage can help you with that )

I may sound as if I'm doing better after 2 years and I am because I'm not afaid of them-they are not police or government officers nor assigned by city or state to do what they are doing. I'm fighting back by "exposing" every person involved. Thugs who lead the "citizens" parade, Apartment managers, Apartment Owners, store managers that ostracized me for no reason, and every little "blue" haired lady and old man, teenager, young earnest MOM doing her duty against the "bad Man", and anyone I can ID by their pix and license plate and pix of their car.

I am hurt and damaged as never before. This can't happen to another person after me. Its my responsibility to see that follow through takes place and it stops with me! If you are experiencing Gangstalking, get it out into the light! That is what begins to get the "tentacles" of this evil act off of you and TRUTH will set you free.

A Lutheran Pastor named Boenhoeffer during WW2 was gassed in the death camp, Birkenau in 1944. He heard another pastor speak at this pastors church and he said: "I said and did nothing when I saw them take the jews away! I said and did nothing when the Catholics and Priests and Nuns were next taken to the camps. Now they are coming for me and their is no one left to speak for me or do something to help me!" " Say something-Do something!" Write, organize, protect your home and family, tell all you know and meet. Yes they will say you are crazy but I won't and there are many others who won't so hold "Faith" up before you and take heart! You are not alone and I don't just mean these "nazis" that persecute you and around you, but people who will be there for you who will answer when you call. I will.

Peace En Jesu, Ty Broussard May 16, 2008

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Our team at work decided to try to help the town of East Palo Alto. We found out that in the 2.5 sq mile area of EPA there are 12,000 children under the age of 18 yrs old. To live EPA it takes nearly $30,000 a year just to survive let alone thrive and so many parents work two jobs. So is watches their children? 9
We decided to help the new YMCA in East Palo Alto. The YMCA helps families from babies to seniors...Here are just some of the services available to families at the East Palo Alto YMCA: health & wellness programs, mentoring, reading skills, tutoring, after school care, senior programs, and a chance to play in a basketball league, go to summer camp, or learn to swim. 0% of the families in East Palo Alto families need financial assistance to use the Y services.

Our team had a call-a-thon and we raised nearly $10,000 dollars in 3 hours! 100% of our fundraising will go to families who cannot afford the YMCA services.

You may make your gift online at www.ymcamidpen.org/donate

OR you may mail a check payable to the “East Palo Alto Family YMCA” to the address listed below:



Lewis and Joan Platt East Palo Alto Family YMCA

550 Bell Street, East Palo Alto, CA 94303

Attn: Help EPA family Campaign

Tax Deductible.

Find out more about the YMCA

http://www.ymcamidpen.org/index.html

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I am so proud and excited as I write this post. It is my belief that African-Americans as race of people should rejoice, encourage, celebrate, comfort, and love each other. That is one of the reasons that I am also excited about Senator Obama's candidacy for the Oval Office. All of our children should have the opportunity to be all that they can be regardless of race and the economic of their birth.

God has blessed me with the gift of children. Through God's grace and mercy my daughter Banke will receive a Masters in Education on May 17, 2008. Banke is 24 years old and a 2005 graduate of The University of VA. She has been employed as a teacher for three years.

Please rejoice, celebrate, and help me congratulate my youngest daughter Banke as she reaches this wonderful achievement in her life. She is a Christian, young, and gifted. I hope that you enjoy reading the following post written by Banke on her blog:

May 13, 2008

hip-Hop saved my life

Lupe said hip-hop saved his life and I am inclined to agree with him. When I think about all of the major events and phases and my life, hip-hop is the backdrop. I remember when my sister came home from Syracuse University so excited to play "Mo Money, Mo Problems". Her enthusiasm was infectious. I laid on the living room floor and let the music wash over me. Perhaps this was my baptism into hip-hop. I remember my other sister telling me how everybody at Penn State went crazy whenever they heard, "f--- the state pen, f--- hoes at Penn State."

I remember being a suburban kid who loved to visit her cousin on the weekend because she lived in the hood. We walked to the corner store, heard the cars blasting music, and thought this is what it's like to be alive. When that same suburban kid moved to the hood herself she wasn't scared or sad because she was moving where the music came from. I remember house parties and dancing on the wall and doing the cry baby.

My image of love was shaped by hip-hop. I remember hearing Mary and Meth thinking I hope to one day find a love like that. I haven't, but that song still sets the standard for how I want to feel. I remember hearing Tupac and getting goose bumps. I felt how Elaine Brown felt when she met Huey P. Newton. What a genius what a maniac, I wanted a man like that.

I remember moving down south and hearing Timbaland constantly on the radio. My sister and I went crazy every time we heard "Love to Love Ya. I wanted "big lips and handle bars." I remember bugging out over how crazy Missy was. I remember the WU album.

I learned about sexuality from hip-hop. LL taught me that if you're going to do it, do it well. Lil' Kim taught me the power that a woman holds in between her legs; Foxy Brown taught me how to use it.

I remember listening to We Are the Streets and Back for the First time non-stop in high school. I remember being rebellious, only putting my head up when I had headphones on.

I remember college and lighting l's and listening to hip-hop. I remember my southern boyfriend putting me on to the merits of Outkast. I remember my afrocentric soul sista putting me on the Jean Grae. I remember The Roots concert being sold out, madlib being bumped by the real hip-hop kids. I remember Lil' Jon got the parties going crazy. I remember when Kayne first came out. He fed the soul of that suburban/hood/conscious/afrocentric bohemian I was becoming.

I remember just wanting to be a part of it. I read everything hip-hop. XXL was read cover to cover the first day it hit the newsstands. S---, it was college you know I didn't have a subscription. I remember listening to everything they referenced as classic. I wanted to live, breathe, and sh-- hip-hop. I remember the rush I felt when my words and my name were in the newspaper-people reading MY reviews on the net.

I remember graduation and the panicky feeling I had. No job lined up, back to the Roc. I remember teaching kids from the same hood and wanting to shield them from every bad decision that could be made.

Now I am a seasoned teacher I'm out of love with hip-hop. I hate the fake thugs it creates, I hate the materialism it promotes, I hate seeing my female students sing along with songs that "let them lick the wrapper." But I could never hate hip-hop.

I use it to teach my students to think critically. Why do you like this? Why is this hot? What does it make YOU feel? So slowly hip-hop is putting me back under its spell. When I teach my students about a four count, and how to critique a beat and they get it, I get that feeling back.

Hip-hop raised me, and I haven't grown up yet.

Vera Richardson

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Awakening in ginnypin08's Blog

Posted by ginnypin08 May 16, 2008

58 years I have been on this planet.

Up until the age of 24 I really thought that what I had was no more than I deserved. I was (then) apparently fairly passable on the looks side, had a really good and enjoyable job but had never really ever found what I was looking for. At one point i even got involved with Scientology. I had never really discovered my inner worth and thought that any male who showed interest in me was therefore equal to me showing interest in him.

Several relationships later I met the one man who understood and loved me. It meant heart searching decision to move to his country to be with him. I left loving parents and a good circle of friends behind. I thought that I was in paradise - a good husband, lovely house, enough money and yes, the jewel in the crown - our first child.

From then on in things changed. I gave up my work, and found myself in a foreign country without any network to speak of. My inlaws told me that I should think myself lucky that their son had chosen me and provided me with all the things we now had.

It still was not enough and I sought solace in the church. First of all I had to be submitted to some kind of ballotage system before being admitted!

My father in law developed a brain tumour and we nursed him to the time of his death at our home. He maintained the same attitude towards me until his death. At that time our second child had beeen born, my husband was pursuing his career and I was left to deal with father in law and 2 children. Upon requesting the church to visit my father in law to help him through his doubts, I was told that we were out of their district. Eventually I found somebody prepared to come and talk to my father in law. He arrived only to send me out of my own living room to make tea for them!

Immediately after the death of my father in law my eldest developed diabetes at the age of 9. I really thought my life had finished. She turned from a lovely, exuberent girl into a neurotic mess. At one time she even threatened to take her own life. There was no one who could get through to her (or me).

In the meantime, our youngest did everything he could to make sure that mummy was not upset and everything was as peaceful as possible.

Life went on, daughter left home and became very independent with good job and own house. Son still at home but we were enjoying çompensating' for the turbulent past years.

In the past 4 years my parents died.

5 months ago my daughter announces that she is pregnant and is in hospital because her blood sugars are out of control and she has to be fitted with an insuline pump. 2 x she was taken into iu.

My son cannot cope with his sister's situation and has one drink too many and is arrested for drunken driving. His eczema breaks out as never before.

I feel alone in the world as never before.

Then, I notice A NEW EARTH. I order the book and read it within 3 days and follow the lessons on the web.

I began to sleep as I had not been able in the past 5 months. My children's lives begin to look as if they are at last shaping up. People I have not seen or heard from in ages have been in touch and, for lack of a better expression, I think I have started my AWAKENING.

Anyway, something has SHIFTED, and good things are happening.

Surely, that cannot be coincidence???

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Some history... in kkzoo6's Blog

Posted by kkzoo6 May 16, 2008

We were next door neighbors for 10 years. We have been in the the room when the other has given birth and we have been in the woods together watching the other one's husband cheat (this will be its own blog)....

Kel has lupus and her middle child has a pace maker (due to heartblock caused by
her mother's lupus) and her oldest (15) has an attitude-- goodness gracious--it makes us crazy...

My youngest was diagnosed with amblyopia (abt 2 months ago) and is legally blind in his left eye.

More medical conditions to come, but we have to work up to May!

So many things to say-


Kel has been hospitalized once this year, so far..
the lupus is attacking her central nervous system
(brain)-- sometimes it feels like I am living with an
Alzheimers patient (I tell her this-- she laughs).

We won't even go into the fact she wears a morphine patch
b/c she is in such pain (I am always kidding the kids
to not rub against it-- the entire house would then be
loopy!)...

Carly (our pace maker) is now having anxiety attacks b/c it looks like her battery needs to
be changed- well hell!! Will it be a "simple" battery change or will her chest have to be "cracked" to reconnect the leads to her heart?

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We have decided to blog about our painful, yet wonderful situation.

The sign on the front table says it all... welcome to the Zoo!!! A story that continues & a great friendship between two women that will stand through time!

I have a friend that is married (soon to be divorced) with 3 kids.

I am a single mom that has been struggling to pay the bills (just like everyone)- I also have 3 kids. About a month I received a call from this wonderful woman and friend- she needed a place to move- she was involved in an abusive (mentally, etc) relationship & just had enough!. I offerred my home (3 bedrooms)- she moved out of her million $ home into my front formal living and dining-- so it is now 2 moms and six kids.

She has no money b/c she found out every account they have and the real estate has liens on them..so all money has disappeared.. I have been struggling for months....

It is hard and we struggle daily, but we also laugh so very much-- we could have our own reality show! Bottom line our kids are happy and they see how it is to once have money and now struggle for money to eat. What amazing kids!! and what an amazing friend! We both have our own concerns and issues and are slowly climbing that hill.. We take it one day at a time...

This proves that friendship between two women can be so completely strong- we love each others children as our own and we love each other... We hold each other accountable & do not want to dissapoint the other.. People come over just to spend a few hours in the house with us-- they said they are amazed at how we can be so positive and not give up- we make them smile and laugh.. But giving up is NOT an option..

So many things to say in this 1st blog... I'll keep it short...

Here is a little about us...

Kel 39

Kiki 39

Katie 15

Nick 13

Carly 12

Bradi 11

Chase 9

Matthew 7

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Report on the Hospital Stay

Of my Mother

Starting on Sunday May 20, 2007

Died June 3, 2007 at 11:00PM

Sunday May 20, 2007

She was taken to XXXXXXXX Hospital from xxxxxxxx Assisted Living in late morning of Sunday May 20th suffering with a nosebleed due to Coumadin. The level of Coumadin in her blood should have been 2. It was 6+.

(We had expressed to her Doctor many times in the past 6 weeks since starting Coumadin that my Mother could not tolerate that med. She had been treated with that med Previously after a knee surgery and had nose hemorrhages from it that had resulted in a hospital stay. Her surgeon at that time had told her that she should not take Coumadin again as it thinned her blood too much. )

She was evaluated in the Emergency Room and later that same day admitted to the Hospital.

The bleeding could not be controlled. That night she was taken to Surgery, and the bleeding was cauterized under local anesthesia. Surgery lasted from Appr.10:30 PM Sunday night until early Monday morning. (1AM or so)

Her family was waiting for her after surgery. They wheeled her past us as we sat in the waiting room. I glanced at the large clock on the wall as they wheeled her under it. It was 1:32 AM. Her attending Anesthesiologist, Dr.XXXX, came to the Critical Care waiting room to talk to us. ( Her Surgeon wanted to get home, as it was late, and could not be bothered to see us) The Anesthesiologist was very concerned and expressed to us that his decision to allow this surgery without a generalized anesthesia was based on the condition of my Mother's Chronic Pulmonary Fibrosis ( C.O.P.D.).

His opinion was that if he had sedated her to that degree (General Anesthesia) he would have most certainly "Lost her" and she would not have survived the surgery.

He also expressed what a cooperative patient she had been through what must have been a frightening and uncomfortable few hours for her. He told us that she had followed all of their instructions and had even said a prayer for herself and them. He was touched by how "Sweet" she was. He also expressed to us that in two or three days she may develop an infection in her airways due to aspirating some blood during the 18 hours of her nosebleed. He instructed us to be an Advocate for her care while she was hospitalized, as his experience was that most staff members and doctors were so overwhelmed and stretch so thin that the consideration needed for great care would probably not be provided and to be there with her as much as possible.

She was in Critical Care and was now resting comfortably. We all saw her briefly, reassured by staff that she would be properly attended to, and we all went to our homes to go to sleep. (It was appr. 3AM when we left)

The night of my Mothers surgery was the beginning of a strange but true experience that I can only believe because I lived it and had other family members there to verify that I was not sleeping and having a bad nightmare.

The first strange encounter was with the Anesthesiologist when he came to talk to us. He talked of his decision to use a local anesthesia instead of a general. He spoke of this being his last night on duty at this hospital. He had been called upon to give them some of his time because they were short staffed. He told us that he practiced in a hospital in the Philadelphia area and named it. I replied that I knew it well.

He stressed how we would need to be an advocate for our mother while she was a patient in this hospital and the many instances of medical uncertainties he had encountered through his career, including his own hospital stay. He expressed that when he was a patient himself, he only felt secure if he ordered his own meds. (Was this an omen?)

He spoke of the real possibility of lung infection developing because of the long duration of the nosebleed. He suspected that some blood would have had to been aspirated.

He talked openly and friendly and I got the sense that he really wanted us to read between the lines. It was very bazaar. Had my daughter, brother and sister in law not been present, I would have thought that I had just been in "The Twilight Zone".

Monday May 21, 2007

Mom is responding to treatment and improving. The packing inside of her nose from the cauterization makes it difficult to breathe, but her vitals look good. We did not see Mom that day. I did phone and speak to her nurse on each shift. I was reassured that she was doing well.

I also spoke to XXXX XXXX, (the Social Worker on Staff) to start arranging for Mom's release to XXXX XXXX Skilled Nursing facility upon her release from the Hospital.

I also spoke to NXXX , the Director of Admissions at The Nursing Home, to secure a room for Mom. We all expected that Mom would be released to Skilled Nursing care in a day or two.

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This was my youngest daughters' birthday. We were all reassured that everything was well and that there was no need to make the two-hour trip to the hospital that day. I spoke to mom on the phone a few times. She seemed optimistic and was really starting to feel better. I was already forgetting about the warnings of the previous night. This is the hospital where my children were born. This was the hospital that had cared for all of us at one time or another. I felt a sense of relief that my mother was in a safe place and was being cared for. As one of Moms' primary caregivers for so many years, I actually decided to relax and enjoy the few days that she would be in the hospital, as that meant that I didn't need to worry about her.

Tuesday May 22, 2007

I did see Mom on Tuesday May 22. She was having difficulty breathing with the packing in her nose and was becoming quite tired from all the effort needed to breathe. The oxygen mask at that time sat on her chin so that she could bring oxygen in with mouth breathing. We were assured by staff that her vitals were good and that as the packing came out of her nose she would get some relief. Mom has had Physical Therapy and is walking in the halls with her walker. She is proud to tell us that she had walked 127 ft. one way and then walked 127 ft. back to her room. Matt is in charge of her Physical Therapy.

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She is in a room usually reserved for morbidly obese people, although she is a normal size person. I guess that wherever there is a vacancy, the hospital will use the room, even if it is not suitable for the patient. There are lifts and pulleys above her bed. There are pull bars on the wall to assist lifting a large person. Mom does not seem to mind these things today as she is mobile and seems to be feeling better in spite of the packing, but she does comment on how strange this room is compared to the kind of hospital room that she is use to being in. If anything, she is a bit annoyed at the packing and expresses her hope that it will be removed soon.

She has a roommate, but she does not want to be friendly, so Mom does not try to make much conversation with her.

Wednesday May 23, 2007

I did not see Mom that day. I did speak to her by phone both in the morning and in the evening. Mom tells me that she feels as if she is more congested. She feels ill. Her roommate in bed #1 has a lot of visitors. Mom cannot rest. I can hear the congestion as she breathes that evening on our phone call. This is not a usual pattern for Mom's C.O.P.D. Her usual pattern is congestion in the morning hours due to sleeping all night. On a usual day, mom can expel the congestion by about 11AM and breathe more comfortably for the rest of the day.

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All of a sudden, the forgotten words of the Anesthesiologist from the first night came rushing into my mind.

I talk to the nurse on duty. I explained what he had said that night, after mom's surgery, about the real possibility of her having aspirated blood and it causing an infection. She replied,"That this was not noted on Moms' chart from him". Therefore, she did not believe this to be the case in her condition today.

When I called back in the evening for a report on her condition, it was "the same". I once again stressed to the nurse on duty that Mom needed to be watched closely for signs of infection, and once again, I was treated with indifference.

That night, I called my mother before she fell asleep and found her, for the first time in her life, not wanting to talk much. She said that the patient in the bed next to her had visitors that evening who were still there and that the visitors had been very loud and used a lot of "cursing" in their conversation all evening. This really bothered Mom, because she was a devout Christian who did not "Take the Name of her Lord in Vain". (Her Words)

I offered to get the nurse on duty involved. mom said "No, the visitors would have to be leaving soon,as visiting hours were over 15 minutes ago".

We ended our call and I promised to call first thing in the morning. She said the same phrase at the end of our call as she had said many times before whenever she heard worry in my voice.

"Don't worry about me. I will be all right. My God protects me and this too shall pass. Go to work tomorrow. The nurses will call you on your cell phone if I need you.

Mom was always thinking more of the other person than herself. That was her way of Life.

Thursday May 24, 2007

I receive a phone call from a nurse at XXXX Hospital at home at 7:47 AM.

She states that Mom has had nightmares and had awakened confused, not knowing where she was, and became very stressed and upset. She informed me that they had injected her with a sedative and that she was having hard time breathing. I told her that I would come as quickly as I could. I live a distance away and it takes about two hours to get to where the hospital is located during that time of the morning with traffic. I immediately started to get dressed and prepared to make the trip.

I received a cell phone call from Dr. xxxxxxxx (Mom's primary care physician) at 10:04 AM.

I was in route and had about 30 more minutes to reach the hospital. Dr. xxxxxxxx told me that my Mom was extremely ill. She said that she had arrived to do rounds and went to examine Mom and found her in severe respiratory distress. She had transferred her on to a Bi Pap breathing machine to allow us time to reach the hospital. She indicated that she believed that death was close. She instructs me to "come as fast as you can"!

I called my daughter to instruct her to meet me at the hospital. I called my brother and instructed him to come. I called my oldest brother and informed him of the situation.

My Daughter & I arrived at the hospital at appr.10:30AM to find my Mom unresponsive and struggling very hard to breathe even with the Bi-Pap machine. My brother & sister in law arrived shortly after. The nursing staff provided us with extra chairs and a serving table complete with two cases of soda, a pot of coffee, a pot of tea, and a package of cookies. It seemed to us that every one expected her to die.

No one came to check on her.

If someone from the staff did come in, they only asked if there was anything that they could do for us.

Mom did not die. Although we rallied around her, talked to her, prayed for her, and spoke our last words of gratitude and love for her, to her. She did not die. Her breathing was very irregular and had long pauses and gasps. Mom is struggling to breath and she tries to cough. When she does finally manage to cough, she expels mucus. It is yellow with dried blood in it.

She seemed to be fighting to come back. My sister in law kissed her head at about 2 PM and exclaimed, "Your Mom has a fever!" We ring for a nurse. They take her temperature. It is 100.7. Within minutes, the staff returns with an I.V. antibiotic drip. With in an hour Mom starts to respond weakly to our questions.

By the evening hours, she is becoming more responsive. She communicates to us that she had very bad nightmares. The visitors at bed 1 had been loud and used some vulgar language the day before. Mom is a devout Christian and gets upset when she hears what she refers to as "cursing and swearing " She had not slept well on Wednesday night and early Thursday morning had been having a nightmare when the staff woke her up.

Mom did not have her glasses with her. She was in a hospital room that is set up to care for morbidly obese people. It has systems on the ceiling to attach lifts and pulleys to aid the staff in lifting obese patients. Some of the lift equipment was on the wall next to her bed. With out her glasses that equipment looked liked knifes to her. She was frightened and indicated to us that she would like a different room.

We requested a different room at the Nurse's desk. They quickly came and moved her to a private room, although we a not requested "Private ", only "different."

We felt that something was not right, although we are not sure what it is. My daughter and I decide to stay all night with Mom.

Mom stays on the Bi Pap machine all night. She sleeps extremely sound and does not wake up until 8:00 AM Friday morning. My older brother arrives to the hospital during the night (about 2:30 AM ). He sees that my daughter and I are with Mom and goes to his hotel, planning to arrive the next morning to relieve us.

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A decision is made by the nursing staff to use adult diapers at this time. Mom was humiliated to be in a diaper and dependent on someone to change her. She was looking forward to regaining her strength and being able to use the bathroom on her own.

We are still clueless at this time and assume that the hospital is still competently on top of things. We are relieved that Mom has rallied and never connect the report of her waking up "confused "with the events of the day.

But my daughter and decide that quite possibly she has developed an infection in her lungs ,as we had been warned was possible, and we should stay in the area and take shifts at the hospital, so as not to leave her alone. What was to unfold in the next few days was so bazaar that we could never have prepared ourselves for it.

Friday May 25, 2007

Mom wakes at 8AM and feels better. My brother arrives. Mom eats breakfast. She is very weak but feeling better and breathing better. Everyone seems surprised that she is alive, including her Doctors and the hospital staff. My daughter, my brother and I stay with Mom for part of the day. My daughter and I go home to rest and my brother takes over at her bedside.

Mom was required to use her Bi Pap machine for most of the day, except for the times when she was eating. She also was drowsy for most of the day and had difficulty breathing and clearing secretions, which she said, were in her upper airway. During mealtime, she was able to feed herself but tired quickly. Both lunch and dinner had to be reordered for her because a standard diet was provided and she required a soft diet due to her bottom dentures having been lost.

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Sometime during the day, as Mom got stronger and wanted to eat, we asked the nursing staff for her dentures. We were informed that they had been removed the bottom denture the morning prior, when they thought that Mom was dying. They were most likely "discarded with the dirty laundry". (Thrown away!)

We reported this to the nursing supervisor, who promised to do a complete search of the hospital, including the laundry area.

We never saw Mom's bottom dentures again.

About the same time, Mom started to ask for her 14k gold cross necklace. It had been a 50th wedding anniversary gift to her from my father and she cherished it. It was on her neck prior to "The Death Episode". We were informed that when Mom went into distress that it was also removed. No one knew what happened to it. No one could remember exactly who removed it. That item was not recovered as well.

Wow! They really were quite sure that she would not need her things again.

Mom is still in the private room that she had been transferred to yesterday. (She is a Medicare Medicaid patient with some supplemental insurance, but not insurance to cover a private room) We are amazed that as she feels better, the hospital is quite adamant that she stay in this private room. It is a large room and they have provided us with two reclining lounge chairs. We are using these chairs to sleep at night. The plan is that a family member will always be present and we are documenting all activity at this time.

No one bothers Mom during the night, except for the occasional LPN coming in to quietly check her vitals. Mom is sleeping sound and well. Of course, we are not.

We are feeling very suspicious at this time. Although, we cannot discern the exact reason why.

Could it be ..........................

The Death vigil where all the staff was so certain that mom was expiring at any time...So certain, that no one disturbed us, as we sat around her bed, for hours. In fact, no vital checks, no changing of moms bed pad.

The only time we were disturbed was when they offered to bring us more snacks.

That evening, when Mom rallied, and she was moved to the private room, she was soaked from head to toe from lying in her urine all day long.

We realized now that we had been selected to "hospice her".

The nursing supervisor coming to mom's private room, and bringing us lounging chairs pillows and blankets.

The comments made by one or two of the nursing staff? Comments of how sorry they were about what had happened to Mom???

They would not elaborate further.

It was as if there was something to "cover up" and we could sense it, but it was still not apparent what it was.

So......Apprehensive, but still with some degree of trust, we all decide to move forward and start planning for mom's release. We decide, with her agreement, that Skilled Nursing Care is the next step in her living arrangements.

Saturday May 26 2007

We are moving Mom's possessions out of the Assisted Living Facility where she has lived for the past 21 months today. My daughter, my brother and I visit with her in her hospital room before we start the move. She seems to be improving; she is getting out of bed for her meals.

After moving her possessions from the facility, we go back to visit with her at the hospital. She is out of bed and feeling better. My daughter and I go home. My brother will be staying with her.

My brother reports to us later that Mom is using the nasal canula and does not need the Bi Pap except when she is sleeping. She seems alert and regaining strength and brags about how good her memory is. She says the alphabet backwards. She is still in the chair when he leaves at 8:00. ( Everyone, including the hospital staff, so no need for a family member to stay all night)She has improved appetite with both meals today and her breathing is much improved over yesterday. She has been sleeping soundly through the night without being disturbed by staff, and has been wakening with much improvement each morning

Sunday May 27, 2007

I take the day off. My brother is staying with her. He reports to me that Mom is doing well. They are having nice conversation. Mom is eating her meals. They talk about family history, her old neighborhood, and conversations that she has had by phone the last day or two, with her friends. They talk of her next move to a Skilled Nursing Facility. Although she is concerned about the expense of living there, he reassures her that everything is being taken care of and she need not worry about finances. She is very lucid and has better recall of the previous hospital events than we do. She has been very alert to what has been happening. Mom tells my brother that she feels much better.

My brother reports to me that:-

She is able to be out of bed and in a chair for most of the day. She still has a lot of congestion in the AM but feels that the new breathing treatments are helping. In the early evening, they have a conversation about old neighbors and events that happened when he was younger. She remembers details that he had forgotten. Her voice is significantly stronger than it has been, and she is able to maintain extended conversation. She talks about the 1st event in which she was given an injection of some medication during the early hours of the morning and how she had trouble that night because the roommate's family had been in to visit and had been loud and used vulgar language and profanity. They had frightened her. During the night, without her glasses the hoists hanging from the ceiling had reminded her of dangling knives when she had been half-asleep and she had felt afraid and disoriented. She was worried that something like that would happen again. She felt that the injection that she was given was to blame for her coma like condition that day and that she was just starting to feel "herself" since that incident. My brother reassures her that her room is safe. She seems to be of calm spirit when he leaves at 8:00 to have dinner and go to his hotel room for some rest.

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Never in a million years would I have believed that this was the last peaceful day that my mother would experience in her life.

As a family, we were all well aware that mom was 84 years old and had health issues. She had chronic conditions had been under the care of her medical team for years. None of those conditions were "life threatening" of there own accord. But the management of her medications and carefully watching her lab reports was crucial to her overall well-being.

If mom had expired that night from her existing conditions, we would have accepted, mourned and moved on.

But the reality of the last week of her life and the events that unfolded have haunted us all very deeply.

This would be our last night of peaceful sleep for quite some time.

Monday May 28,2007

I receive a call from the 6th Floor Nurses desk at 6:07 AM. The nurse identifies herself as xxxxx. She states that the staff had woke Mom up for treatment at 4AM and is that she is confused and resisting treatment. Nurse xxxxx states that Mom became combative and that she injected her with Haldol. Mom was asking for her family. Would I talk with her and calm her down?

I said that I would try. When my Mother came on the phone, she was very alert and did not seem confused.

She said, " Honey, they are treating me nasty. Call your brother at the Hotel and tell him to come quick. Tell him to bring the police. They are abusing me. They put gloves on my hands. I am tied to the bed.

I called My Brother with my cell phone. My Mother is still on the other phone pleading with me to get help. My brother said he would go immediately. I got up to leave for the hospital as well.

Brother I arrive at about 6:45. The nurse on duty approaches me and tells me that Mom was combative during the night and they had to administer a sedative and apply restraints. Mom's arms are restrained to the bed by gloves and ties on each side. She appears sedated and initially acknowledges my presence by saying "they were terrible to me." She is not on the Bi Pap but a regular O2 mask. When I asked what had happened she said, "It was awful but it's a long story, I can't tell you now." Then she becomes unresponsive. Because of my personal experience with sleep apnea, I notice that she is having difficulty breathing. She takes ten breaths in which there is air intake then for five breaths, she struggles and I cannot hear intake - it appears that these are apneas. I tell the nurse who comes in and says this is not a problem because her O2 level is maintaining. Mom appears to be distressed when she is not having air intake and I request that they put her back on the BiPap to assist with the breathing. The nurse advises that this has not been ordered and she cannot do so. The respiratory therapist comes in for a breathing treatment and I advise her of the breathing difficulty and again request that she administer the breathing treatment through the BiPap and she indicates that this is not necessary. During this early period, the Nurse Practitioner from Mom's primary care Doctor's office arrives and I note to her that Mom had been sedated during the night and was very groggy. Mom became aware of the NP and responded to her questions, them went back to sleep when she left. Her disrupted breathing pattern lasted into mid morning then she seemed to be breathing regular with air intake on each breath. Through the rest of the morning, until I have to leave around 1:00 she remains unresponsive.

I arrived at about 8:30 AM. Mom was unconscious and was in great respiratory distress. Her Breathing was in gasps and pauses, exactly like Thursday when her family was called to her dying bedside. Her heart rate was again very irregular.

We asked the nursing staff to explain what had happened. The Staff informed us that Mom had become combative. (Very out of character for Mom) and had been given a sedative called Haldol.

As we sat there, we slowly began to realize that Mom had apparently been overdosed and that this seemed like the exact same situation that we found ourselves in the previous Thursday morning.

By now, My daughter had arrived to join my brother and me. My brother needed to get back to his home across the state. He had obligations for the next day. I promised to stay with her, day and night if necessary, until she regained consciousness. Mom is breathing irregular and labored.

She was in a coma like state.

Her Pulmonary specialist arrived first during rounds. He was shocked to see her in this condition. We explained what had happened to her to the best of our ability. He was very angry. He goes to the nurse's station, which is directly outside of mom's room. We hear him reprimanding the nursing staff in a very loud voice. Although we could not make out all of his words, we do hear him demand an explanation for what has happened.

He puts mom back on the Bi Pap machine.

Her primary care Doctor arrived. She walked into the room, her mouth dropped open and she exclaimed, "What happened?"

My daughter and I proceeded to tell her of the events as we knew them, starting with the phone call to me by Nurse xxxxx, that morning. At this point my daughter and I are so distressed that we are pleading with her to "Please help us before this incompetent hospital kills our mother and Nana".

Dr MiXxx XXXx looks shocked. She goes to the Nurses Desk and returns with Mom's chart. As she reads the chart, I can see the blood drain out if her face. She looks at us and states " Your Mother was given two injections of Haldol this morning. She reads the chart from front to back. She looks even more distressed. She states. "Your mother was also given an injection of Haldol on Thursday morning. When I came in to see your Mother on Thursday morning, I found her turning grey and in great respiratory distress and ordered the BiPaP machine. I really thought that she was dying. I had no idea that she had been given Haldol. I never would have allowed her to be treated with that sedative. In addition, it concerns me even more that it appears as if the second injection of Haldol was given after family was contacted. That would be very inappropriate. She makes a note on Mom's chart in large, bold letters....... No Haldol.

Dr. xxxxx xxxx goes to the nurse's desk to investigate the situation. She returns to inform us that the "On Call Doctor" gave the order for the Haldol Injection. She states that all we can do at this point is allow the drug to come out of her system. When Mom received 2mg. of Haldol on the previous Thursday, she was unresponsive for about 12 hours. Dr. xxxxx xxxxxx expresses to us that she expects that she will be unresponsive for at least 24 hrs. This time Mom had received 4mg. of Haldol.

Mom continues to struggle and battle the effects of the sedation.

Mom's level of unconsciousness seems much deeper this time. Much greater than the Haldol experience of last Thursday. It seems to take an incredible effort for her to breathe even with the assistance of the Bi Pap machine. Many times that day her breathing stops for 20 or 30 seconds at a time and then starts again with a gasp. It is heartbreaking to watch her struggle to come back from this latest assault.

How much can her poor body take? We are angry and horrified. We truly do not know if mom can fight this second deliberate drug overdose.

We express our anger and fears for mom's well being to the Nursing Director.We are advised to file another complaint with the patient's rights representative in the morning.

My younger brother and his wife arrive. We fill them in on what has been happening. They are also in shock and immediately go to the nurse's desk searching for answers.

But by this time it is too late for answers....

It seems as if everyone now, with the exception of two or three sympathetic nurses, has been instructed not to give out any information. This is when we start to request to view my mothers chart whenever it is brought into the room.

My daughter and I stay all day. We talk with zzzzz zzzzzzz the Nursing Director. She brings extra lounge chairs to Mom's hospital room to allow us all to recline and sleep that night. A few sympathetic nurses and aides come in to tell us how sorry they feel for us and to ask if we need anything. We are once again advised by some staff that in the morning we should go to ddddd ggggg, the patient rights representative and file a compliant.

Mom is unconscious all night.

We are in a state of fear, disbelieve and exhaustion.

What is happening here? Are they so short staffed and impatient that they would prefer putting their elderly patients into life threatening comas instead of coping with a confused elderly patient who is awakened from a deep sleep during the night? We are now beginning to see the whole picture. Some of the nursing staff are very sympathetic to the situation and see how we are in a state of confusion and disbelieve ourselves. They try to guide us in what action we should take ,but the hospital has already begun to silence it's employees.

Haldol is a major antipsychotic drug indicated for the treatment of schizophrenia.

Haldol is contraindicated in patients with Parkinson's disease, cardiovascular disease and respiratory ailment and can cause respiratory depression and possibly death, especially in elderly patients who are sensitive to the medication.

Tuesday May 29, 2007 AM

We all wake up at dawn Wednesday morning

Mom is still battling sedation. She is still breathing irregular. Her heart rate is still all over the place. It can be 90 one second and 150 the next. She is still on the Bi Pap machine to assist her breathing. She has brief seconds of responsiveness. When she is awake, she is very scared. You can see the terror in her eyes. I have never seen my Mother like this before.

She asks us repeatedly "Why did they do this? It was terrible ".

My daughter and I meet with the Patient Representative. She makes note of our complaint and tells us that she will start an investigation. She spends time at the sixth floor nurses desk that afternoon .The Representative comes into Mom's room to talk to her about the experience. Mom is trying to tell her story, but she is still fighting the Haldol overdose and is talking in fragments. She expresses to the representative that she had been violated during the night. She keeps repeating..."XXXX did it XXXX did it" She gets very upset, and talking about what happened to her makes her heart rate skyrocket. We decide to give it a day or two to allow her to regain full control.

PM

Mom is starting to respond. She c